[Tin x Can] If Only I Could Trust

Chapter 9: Part 2

A/N: Might be boring. Lots of monologue here. Sorry but it's necessary. On a lighter note: 2000 views and over 200 votes?! Thanks!!!!

'I'll go. But I have a few requests.' I said after thinking long and hard.

'State them and I will see what I can do.' He placed his pen down on top of his book.

'I need three days to say goodbye to Can. Before you say anything - you can put a tracker on me. I won't run away.' He nodded his approval. 'Also, when Tul wakes up, keep him from Can at all odds.' His eyebrow rose at the unusual request but he nodded again. 'No matter what, don't bug Can to get me to do something.' Again a nod. 'Lastly, since I have nothing to lose I want you to listen to what I have to say next no matter how you feel about it. Act like you really care for me.'

'I told you I care for you but you are stubborn as always.' He let out a sigh and raised his hand for me to continue.

'Tul isn't the perfect son you think he is. While you and mother were always busy, you left me with him but he didn't treat me as his brother.' My father's sharp eyes stared at me with many questions in them. 'Tul...started off molesting me, which turned into rape. If you don't believe me, I don't care. I just had to tell you. I never did drugs. He set me up. If you take a test from me now, I'll be clean.' I laughed ironically. 'I do have a drinking problem now but it's because of you, and mother, and Tul. You all did this to me. Are you happy now to have ruined me so thoroughly?' I won't cry in front of him. I took a shaky intake of air. I won't cry.

'Why didn't you tell me this sooner?' His voice was sincerely saddened.

'You would have believed me? You wouldn't. He had you all brainwashed and me too. I started believing I wasn't worth anything. Until I met Can. Then again, you all took him away from me. He was my happiness. Father, I need to ask you something.' His intense eyes stared into mine. 'Who talked to Can and what did they say? I only want to know because I'm being honest with you and I want the same. I want to fix it before I leave him for good.'

'Your mother. She's been talking to him Tin almost daily. Threatening him to leave you alone but he refused. She's been having you followed since Tul told us you were going out more and that it was suspicious. She was afraid you were doing drugs again and in turn found out you are with a man. She and Tul came to me to help them end this thing that you have with that boy. Tul unfortunately was injured by thugs so she took it on her own to call Can. She believed he was using you for money.'

'BUT WHY?! WHY CAN'T I BE HAPPY?!' I didn't mean to lose my cool and yell at him but the pressure was becoming too hard to hold.

'Son calm down.' His firm voice boomed loudly and I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't take it. 

'Why can't I have Can? Why do I have to keep enduring this pain everyday? What gives you the right to mess me up this badly? Do you know what you're all doing to me? Tul was enough, but now I have you two against me even more than before. Only because I love a man. Does that make sense? Does it? You...have all broken my spirit. I don't care what you do to me anymore. I don't care if I'm so alone anymore. Tell me, what did she say to make him leave me?' My shoulders shook with repressed rage.

'She told him that if he didn't break up with you, she will come after his family and friends.'

'How classic. I didn't know we were in a remake of Boys Over Flowers.' Unfortunately real life was starting to mirror a show that Can told me he likes. During one of our text conversations before bed he said that it reminded him of us.

'What?'

'It's not important.' I let out a laugh that bordered on hysterics. That explains a lot that happened in the last few days of my and Can's relationship. So many people were in it just to destroy it and I didn't see anything coming.