[Tin x Can] If Only I Could Trust

Chapter 2: Part 2

I stood there silently staring him in the eyes. I just kissed another man. The craziest part was, as I looked down at his lips, I wanted to do it again. I didn't understand the emotions I was feeling right now. It has to be the alcohol and drugs. They were making me do things out of character and be confused.

The boy in front of me looked just as confused as I. His eyes were wild and cloudy as if all of his feelings were waging a war there. I felt the electricity between us, by the looks of it he felt it too. I watched as he touched his mouth tentatively.

'You...you stole my first kiss. What the fuck.' He sounded as if in shock.

I took advantage of it, pulling him to me while simultaneously turning him so his back was against my car. Removing his hand, I leaned my head down. I had to get another taste. My lips were so close to the sweet softness of his mouth.

Punch!

I stumbled back as my head buzzed a little. Well, I felt that one. Looking back to him I saw he was seething. He was shaking and huffing and I thought he would try to hit me some more. Instead, he took off, leaving his bag of snacks that had fallen out his hands on the ground. He must be on the track team as well because he ran very fast. Touching my lip I chuckled. This day was very interesting indeed.

After sleeping for a while in my bed and getting all the effects of the alcohol away, I had a much clearer mind. I was weighing the consequences of my actions. I had kissed that poor boy. What the hell was I thinking?

Truth be told, I wasn't even disgusted with myself. I wanted more.

He was nothing like Pete though. He has no money, was uncultured, and boring in looks. So why was I so willing to check in my straight card for him? I knitted my eyebrows. I must have gone crazy. I sighed and felt my mouth was dry. I needed some water. I was used to drinking so my head didn't hurt but the effect of the Xanax was making me sleepy still.

I was in deep thought drinking a bottle of water in the kitchen when I heard footsteps behind me. Involuntarily I stiffened. Even though it had been many years since I was near Tul, I knew it was him. He always exuded a threatening aura. Losing my thirst I dumped the rest of the water in the sink and threw the bottle in the trash.

I felt his arm wrap around my waist and despite my own strength he pulled me back against his body. My skin felt scorched and even though I wanted to be tough I shivered. I was beginning to feel scared. Even if I needed to maintain control, he always found a way to take it from me.

'Get off!' I growled. It only resulted in him spinning me around and pinning me against the nearest wall. His hand began to roam on my chest as he smirked.

'I said I missed you before. You never let me properly welcome you home.' His face was dark and scary. I hated this side of Tul the most. When he was like this he was unpredictable.

'I said get off!' My voice raised even louder than before.

His hand shot to my throat where he squeezed. 'Keep it up and we'll be discovered.'

'That's what I want.' I choked out, gasping for air.

'Really now? Who do you think they would blame huh? Me or you? I'm married now with a child and obviously everyone believes I'm straight. You, on the other hand, are a mess. All I had to say is that you drugged me and came on to me. You're reckless. Didn't you have a drug scandal already?' His tone was very threatening. This is what he's good at. He was starting to get in my head and make me feel like that 10-year-old boy they shipped off. Wouldn't they ship me off again? 'Come.'

I had stopped resisting as he pulled me along by the collar. Before I had realized it, we were in his room and on his bed. Tul was straddling my waist and undoing his tie and his neatly buttoned up shirt. Shit, why did I just freeze? Now I'm in a horrible situation I'd have to get out of.