[Tin x Can] If Only I Could Trust

Chapter 3: Part 1

AUTHOR NOTE: Well it's the time to start getting interesting.

I waited after school for Can which I hadn't realized that I had been doing so more and more lately. Instead of seeing him, I noticed Pete strolling down the side of the building near the parking lot. Walking quickly, I caught up to him. He was deep in thought it appeared because he didn't notice me beside him.

'Pete,' I grabbed his wrist and halted him.

'Oh! Tin! You scared me...' He sniffs in my direction. 'Have you been drinking? You smell like...'

'I have to talk to you. Hear me out before you say anything.' He nodded slowly with questioning eyes. 'I like you Pete. I don't want to lose you to someone else.' His mouth slightly opened in shock. I stared at his lips hoping to feel something, but nothing came. 'I would like to date you. You keep saying I'm not like you, but what if I was? What if I wanted to experience that, being happy with you? Would you give me a chance? All I ask is one kiss. If after that and you don't feel anything for me besides friendship, then I will stop.'

I watched his adam's apple bob as he swallowed hard.

'Tin...' He looked unsure. 'I don't know what to say besides that I ... I like someone.'

'Who? That thai program kid Ae? He's nothing compared to me and the life that I could give you if you just say yes. I can't love you right now but I could, right?' He blinked rapidly in shock at my out of character behavior. 'I remember how you used to look at me before Ae came along. Look at me like that again. I will return it this time I promise.'

He stayed in shock, frozen in place at this unusual side of me. I pulled Pete closer to me. Even though his mouth wasn't as appealing to me, I could learn to like it. I just had to kiss him and forget the other. I even swallowed uncomfortably before leaning down towards Pete's waiting mouth.

Before our lips connected I was pulled away roughly. I smirked thinking I would find Ae when I looked around but instead I saw Can with a beet red face. My heart fell unexpectedly. His pouty mouth jutted out when he looked between us both.

'Oi Tin!!!' He yelled at me. Pete looked at us in shock... and relief? I frowned, his feelings for Ae were much deeper than I had first thought. Sighing I steeled my face. 'Excuse us a minute.' He said to Pete before pulling me a few feet away.

'Sure...' I heard Pete say in a dumbfounded manner.

I turned fully to face Can. My heart skipped a beat as his face showed his anger towards me.

'You asshole!' He glared at me disapprovingly. 'Stay away from doing these things with Pete. You like to wreck others' happiness? Why are you doing this, huh?' He continued to ramble on, not waiting for me to answer. 'You kissed me don't you remember? Are you a serial kisser now? It meant nothing right? Tell me now!' His anxiety showed in his voice. 'You don't want to kiss me any more, just Pete? Well, I understand I guess... I hurt your feelings right? I felt bad ok. I felt really bad and I couldn't eat. I never should have said those mean things to you. I'm sure you are loved by someone.'

'What if I'm not?' I spoke up then, honestly.

'Really?' His shocked eyes blinked up at me.

'Yes, really. What if I'm not, what will you do about it?'

'I...I don't know. We could be friends.'

'We already are friends in a way.'

'Err...I don't know what you think we are but it's definitely not friends!'

'Hmm.' I hummed in understanding. He's right, just because I forced a kiss on him, didn't mean we were anything to each other. On my end, I started to realize that I always looked for him wherever I went. Deep inside I felt a stirring of some kind of feelings for him. I didn't understand them but I might have been running from them a little bit by approaching Pete. I unconsciously sighed heavily. What a mess I am.

'Ugh, what's that smell?' He leaned in more, making my heart quicken it's beat. 'Did...did you drink? Oi! How dumb is this? You fool, you could have been kicked out of school or reprimanded at least. Ahnnn.' He clucked his tongue. 'I'll have a cab take you home, you're paying of course.'

'I'm fine and I can drive.' I wanted to leave all of a sudden. Brushing past him I started speed walking towards my car but I was stopped by his hand on my arm.

'No way, I can't let you drive drunk.'

I shook his hand off me and continued. I heard him making a fuss behind me but I didn't care to listen. Unlocking my car door, I slipped into the seat. Before I could even pull off Can yanked open the door and hopped into the passenger side. I swiveled my head to look at him as he clicked on his seatbelt.

'What? I can't let you drive drunk alone without helping. What if you get in an accident? It'll be my fault because I let you go by yourself!'

This idiots reasoning I couldn't understand but if that's what he wanted to do then ok. I shook my head with a slight smirk. If we could get somewhere to talk alone then maybe I could figure out what's going on between us. It was a perfect time since no one would be home most of the week.

We drove to my home in silence. I side eyed the guy sitting next to me and saw he was chewing his bottom lip. He actually looked like a cute little white monkey. When I started driving through the richer neighborhoods he gasped. I'm sure he had never entered any where near here. He couldn't afford it and would be out of place.

After driving along further, I finally clicked open the gate from my phone. Can's face displayed shock and his mouth was agape in awe. I parked and got out the car, leaving him inside. After almost reaching the front entrance I turned and yelled, 'Are you coming?'

Can scrambled out the car slamming the door behind him and rushing up to me. For once, he was speechless. I can't lie and say I didn't like it. After entering my home, his mouth got even wider. He kind of strolled from room to room, getting lost a few times along the way. I followed behind him so the dummy wouldn't injure himself in some way.

"Oiiiiiii!', his loud mouth finally boomed, 'This...this...this is amazing! You live here?! It's...I've never seen a place like this. Where's your kitchen?' I rolled my eyes and pointed the way. This idiot.

By the time I caught up to him he was ransacking the refrigerator. I couldn't help but laugh as he placed different items on the kitchen island. Who even said he could eat anything?

'You laughed?' He came over with some bread and a knife. 'I can't believe it.' He smiled up at me and I couldn't help but smile back. There it was again, that feeling in my heart. 'Wow, you can smile.'

As the thumping of my heart became louder, I kissed him, pulling him against me. I heard the silverware clang on the floor but I didn't mind it. He tried to push me away but my lips held fast, coaxing him with an urgency I previously suppressed. After a while his hands relaxed. Even though his lips were yielding to me, he wasn't kissing me back.

I lifted my head and concentrated on his flushed cheeks. I couldn't believe that I made him this way. Finally he pulled away from me to retrieve his dropped items. Can avoided my gaze as much as possible, intent on making his sandwich.

Finally he spoke.

'I...why do we have to kiss? We are guys...not even friends. Uhm...Err...shit.' He went silent again. I stared at him eating his sandwich. Why was I interested in kissing this person? I scowled. What were these feelings for? My heart was loud in my ears. Thump-thump.

I liked how cute he looked eating. Snapping out of it, I put up all the food items and started walking towards the stairs. I just wanted to lay down, my head was getting a little fuzzy. I had been drinking almost every day and today it was catching up to me fast. For some reason I didn't expect Can to follow me but there he was in the back of me asking a billion questions about my room.

I sat down on the bed, ogling him as he ran around to each area of my room, looking at things and saying wow at each moment. He found my bathroom and was lost for another fifteen minutes. A huge grin was on his face as he eyed my bed and tried to jump on it. My hand pushed him back slightly and he looked disappointed.

'Go wash up or take a shower or something. You smell like sweat and I'm not having you sit on my bed smelling like a trashcan. If you don't have any clothes to change into I have an old gym uniform you can wear.' I smirked, I wanted to see him wearing my clothes.

AUTHOR NOTE: Part 2 soon!