'Till I met you (BOOK 1) (COMPLETED)

'Till I met you (Secret LoverxArguments 2)

Note: Before everything else, I would like to thank itsaess for making my book cover. I LOVE U SO MUCH ATE!!!!

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Ugh!!!!! This is too much, ang sakit! Sobrang sakit! Kumikirot nanaman ng sobra-sobra 'yung dibdib ko. Its too much, hindi ko kaya. H-hindi ko na kaya....

Why is this happening to me? I hurt so many people....why do I have to carry this burden with me? What's wrong with me? Why am I being stupid?

I looked up myself infront of the mirror and then I realized, I was crying....again.

"Sino ka ba?" I asked myself.

"Bakit mo ba ginagawa sa sarili mo 'to?"

"Your so selfish!" I threw my bag at that stupid mirror, just seeing my own reflection.

Gusto kong sumigaw pero bakit? Bakit hindi ko kayang ilabas lahat? Is it that too much? I hate myself, lahat na lang ng taong nasa paligid ko nasasaktan ko. I always hurt other people before myself, bakit? Bakit Kathileen? Why do you have to do it?!

Bakit.....

I hate it so much!

Narinig ko ang ilang beses na pagingay ng doorbell sa baba, so I got up. Didn't bother to fix myself, but still I wipe off my tears.

Agaran akong bumaba ng sala at binuksan ang pintuan, I stood up shocked from the person infront of me.

"C-chris?" My voice cracked. Sh*t

"Kath? A-anong nangyari? Bakit ka naiyak? May masakit ba sa'yo?" Sunod-sunod na tanong n'ya ng makapasok s'ya sa loob ng bahay.

I can't tell him....

"Kath?" Muling pagtawag n'ya sa pangalan ko.

He stretched out his arm and looked at me.

"Wanna hug?" He asked.

I didn't said anything and stepped forward, from there he was already hugging me. I wrap my arms around his waist and then I burried my face in his chest, I was about to cry again.

"Sige lang, i-iyak mo lang 'yan. Hindi kita pipigilan," ani n'ya.

I started to cry harder when that pain in my chest came back. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko but Chris didn't notice. He was patting my head as I cry, and that made my heart skip a bit.

Bakit ngayon pa?

I moved away ng tignan n'ya ko.

"Gusto mo bang pagusapan o wag na?" Tanong n'ya.

I wiped my tears before I could answer, "No, wag ngayon."

"I see, gusto mo pa bang umiyak?" Ngiting sambit n'ya gesturing for another hug, is he....teasing me?

Tinulak ko s'ya as he laugh his ass out, "Nakakarami ka na ah!" Sigaw ko sa kan'ya.

"I'm sorry, you just look so.....tired," ani naman n'ya na ikinatahimik ko.

Yes Chris, your right. I'm so tired.

Napatingin ako sa orasang nakasabit sa sala, alas kwatro na pala ng hapon.

"Do you have something in mind?" Tanong n'ya.

"Actually, bibisitahin ko si papa ngayon. Gusto mong sumama?" Tanong ko naman sa kan'ya, and he nodded instantly.

"Magpapalit lang ako," ani ko sa kan'ya at pumunta ng kwarto.

Nagulat ako sa pagpasok ko sa loob ng kwarto, I messed up bigtime. Halos lahat ng gamit ko binato ko, ang kalat ng kwarto ko. I really can be a different person pagnaiyak ako.