FIDELITY

Chapter 19

GUILTY  AND REGRETS

Hindi pa siya gising pero sabi ng kanyang doctor na kapatid niya ay okay naman na daw, at kailangan lang magpahinga. Last night kailangan niyang masalinan ng dugo dahil marami ang nawalang dugo sa kanya. Unique donate some blood, mabuti naman at magkaparehas sila ng type ng dugo dahil rare ang dugo ni Fidelity.

I was so scared yesterday, lalo na ng lumabas ang nurse at sinabi na kailangan ng dugo ng pasyente, nag pa check kami ni Unique baka may mag match sa amin, hindi kami nag match but Unique's blood much with her blood. Kaya nakampante ako. 

Lumapit ako sa kama, magaan kong hinaplos ang kanyang pisnge. —I was just only sisxteen ng dinala ako ni daddy dito sa bahay mo, I was just sixteen ng pinapirma mo ako ng marriage contract, I was just sixteen when you took my virginity, and hurt me physically. I was just sixteen but I feel si violated, I feel so dirty, worthless and whore kasi iyan lahat ang pinaramdam mo sa akin.—  Hanggang ngayon ay paulit-ulit na pumapasok sa isipan ko ang mga sinabi niya. "I'm so sorry i didn't know, kung sana sinabi mo kaagad sa akin sana hindi umabot sa ganito."

Mapakla akong natawa ng maalala ang mga bagay na ginagawa at inaakto niya na nag papalito sa akin, she doesn't like coffee, she doesn't like liquor, she don't like bitching with my maids, which is wierd dahil iyon ang mga hilig niya na nalaman ko. She love helping nanay Rosa in the kitchen, mahilig siyang mag luto contradict sa nalaman ko na wala itong alam sa gawaing bahay.  She prefer reading books than watching Tv. Oo nag sosoot siya ng maiksing damit pero natural lang dahil short naman at sando ang soot niya, it's okay though ako lang ay may problema sa damit niya, all her clothes is for teens and casual. napansin ko rin na wlaa siyang jeans nag karoon lang ng bumili siya.

The door open at iniluwa noon si Unique, naka soot pa ito ng medical Uniform. Nangunot ang kanyang noo.

"What are you doing here?" he asked

"You what are you doing here?  As far as i remember you don't have any business here."

"Sorry but Fedy is my business and I'm her to visit and take care of her."

Tumaas ang kilay ko sa sinabi niya.

"Have you forgotten, na ang dinadalaw mo ay asawa ko."Nakardam ako ng inis ng nakakaloko itong tumawa.

"Kuya wala kang asawa dito, the one lying on the bed is not your wife, and if she is....  really ngayon ka lang mag-papak-aasawa sa kanya? Is your conscience eating you?" He said mocking me.

"She's still my wife!" Matigas kong sabi na tinawanan niya lang.

"Oh yeah, and pigs can fly. Can you tell me the fucking name of your wife?" Paghahamon niya.

This fucking pest is pissing me.

"Your wife name is Faith dela Cruz, while the one lying on the bed name's Fidelity Heaven dela Cruz. Now does your wife name is Fidelity Heaven?"

The door open at wala na akong nagawa ng lumapit si Unique sa kinhihigaan ni Fidelity. Pumasok ang doctor na kapatid ng asawa ko, this fucking doctor I want to strangle his neck for agreeing na ipambayad ang kapatid sa akin! Who was in a right mind para pumayag sa ganoon?

Lumapit ito sa kinhihigaan ng pasyente, mukhang Hindi lang ako ang may galit sa doctor dahil masama rin ang tingin ni Unique dito.

"Thank you for giving blood to my sister."

"We're family, and family help each other." Seryosong sabi ng kapatid ko. The doctor smile to Unique bago nag baba ng tingin sa kapatid.

"I'm sorry mister Nikolaides, for the trouble that my sister cause." Hindi ko alam kung ako ba ang kausap o si Unique.  "My sister need all the love and care na hindi ko nagawang ibigay sa kanya, I should be the one protecting her and giving all my love because we are family, pero hindi ko ginawa I have my reasons but it wasn't justify the wrong doing that I did to my sister."