UNIQUE ZYAIRE
NIKOLAIDES
They never saw my pained, lahat ng nakikita nila sa akin ay ang masayang ako. What they don't know and they don't see is I'm dying inside.
Fuck that cousin!
Hindi siya naging akin dahil sa mag pinsan kami. How can i fight when fighting for it is already a losing battle.
I have everything now, ang iniwang mana ni daddy na ngayon ay ibinigay na ni kuya sa akin, na sa akin na rin ang hospital na pag-aari ng pamilya.
Pero bakit hindi pa rin ako masya? Yes I am smiling but deep inside I'm not happy!
Paano ako magiging masya when i saw her walking in the aisle for my brother, at ang masakit nasa tabi lang ako ni kuya, it's ripping my heart, pero hindi ko pwedeng ipakita na malungkot ako, i have to pretend that i am happy and enjoying every bit of their moment.
Parang nadurog ang puso ko when they exchange their vows, and when the priest announced that they are now husband and wife.
Why i can't be happy?
Ano ba ang kulang sa akin?
Why do i need to suffer?
Then one day i wake up, may dahilan na ako para ngumiti ulit, iyong ngiti na hindi pinipilit, i found my Miracle.
She's amazing woman i can see it, but she suffered in depression, everybody call her crazy but for me she's not. She's just scared and very guarded of herself but she's not crazy!
Damn it she's not!
May baliw ba na nakakapagsalita naman ng maayos kapag kinakausap? She's smart and lovely, pero takot siya! Takot siyang mag tiwala, she always said that trusting people is no good because they are going to betrayed her.
Maybe I'm just a good person or maybe he find me someone that he can trust for.
She only trust me, even her own family hindi niya pinagkakatiwalaan, ako lang talaga may tiwala siya sa akin and i don't want to fail her.
Pero wala talagang perpekto sa mundo, dahil isang araw na gising na lang ako na kahit ako mismo ay wala ng tiwala sa sarili ko!
I ruined her!
Ako ang sumira sa kanya!
I am the cuase of her depression!
Ako ang dahilan kong bakit muntik-muntikan na siyang mabaliw!
Ako ang dahilan kung bakit hirap siyang magtiwala!
Damn! Fuck this I am the only person he trust, pero ako pala ang dahilan kung bakit nawalan siya ng tiwala sa mga taong nakapaligid sa kanya!.
Hindi ko alam kung paano at ano ang nangyari! But i ended up seeing myself as a monster.
Paano ko iyon nagawa sa kanya? Paano ko sinira ang pagkatao niya! I want to beat myself to death.
I promise i will help her finding the man who ruined her life, pero paano ko sasabihin na ako iyon kung mahal na mahal ko na siya at takot na takot na akong maala siya?
Is lying is the best option?
Or telling her the truth and accept things na hindi niya ako tatanggapin no matter how tried i will make?
Can we find THE GIFT of love even it's very imposible?
July 22 , 2019
Monday
BBH💙💙
ESTÁS LEYENDO
FIDELITY
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