FIDELITY

Chapter 33

HIS DISAPPOINTMENT
AND REGRETS.

NAKITA KO SIYANG KASAMA ang kapatid ko and i admit she's beautifully stunning with her sinful gown. Side long split, and backless with deep V neck gown, and for the first time hindi ako nakaramdam ng galit sa soot niya, I felt proud dahil dalagang-dalaga siyang tingnan.

I don't know what to feel any more, I'm hellish discombobulated! I wanted this! i choose this pero bakit hindi ko nagugustohan ang mga mangyayari? I'm trying to focus my mind to Clari,nagising ako ng sinumbatan niya ako, and now I'm trying to pick the pieces that I broke para mabuo siyang muli. It was a stupid decision of me, asking break-up because I need revenge, i told her babalikan ko siya pero hindi ko ginawa dahil i decided to marry the person i thought that cause my mom and brother death!, my reason? I want her to suffer until she gave up her life! I made her fall in love with me and i succeed! She love me! She fall in love in me,  my planned was to broke her pero hindi ko ginawa dahil iba ang narardaman ko. I can feel that something is change in me! And I'm getting there! Konti na lang andoon na ako! But unique's happened! They ruined everything, my trust and my hopes. Right then I think maybe falling for her wasn't really meant for me to do so. So I called Clarity and told her that I want us back, the glee and excitement in her voice and face is priceless, she love me that much huh? She waited for a year!

It wasn't easy, I told her what really my intention is. I even told her that I am married! Fuck that married! bakit ko pa kasi inayos! Now I need to annual or fucking marriage!  such Wasting of time. Ang masaya niyang mukha ay napalitan ng panibugho at galit, pero wala siyang sinabi, not until we had a fight ng gusto niyang magtalik kami. Sinumbatan niya ako at ipina-mukha sa akin ang kagagohan kong ginawa sa kanya.

I don't know what to do any more my mind keep on telling me that I made the right thing! But my fucking heart is not cooperating! Madali lang naman sana ang gagawin isauli si Fedy sa kanila total sabi nga ni Unique nakaganti na ako, her father loss the company na iningatan nito ng sobrang tagal, plus nagkabaon-baon pa ito sa utang, her sister now in jail! Pero bakit hindi ko magawa? Giving her freedom is a bad idea, I know it's selfish! But I want to keep her! Keep in my fucking house , in my fucking life. kahit na may Clarity ako!. Seeing her happy with my brother is really disappointing me! She love me huh? Pero mahal niya rin ang kapatid ko! If only she choose me! If only she choose to leave my brother 'di sana'y wala kami sa ganitong sitwasyon.! I can't tolerate it and she need to be punished!

Kagabi sa party galit na galit ako, she danced with July, and she look happy. Unique is being sweet to her! Kumanta pa talaga sila! I noticed  that she's sad in the last part of the song! while looking at me, what is she saying, na pakawalan ko na siya para, Malaya silang maglandian ng kapatid ko, putangina nila! Ginawa na nga nila kahit na maring tao.!

Dumagdag pa sa galit ko ang mga komento ng mga kasama ko sa mesa. Kinikilig sila, ang sweet daw ng dalawa e! Bagay na bagay daw! And Alma, sister of July said ''bulag na lang ang lalaking pakakawalan pa ang ganyang babae''..  Sinigundahan din ito ng isa pang babae na nag ngangalang Tach, ang weird ng pangalan. Well my wife is Fidelity!!!  Fuck that wife!!! Stop claiming it! Si Unique talaga ang gusto niya! Dahil hindi nalalayo ang kanilang edad!

"Hindi ka nga pwedeng pumasok." rinig kong sabi ng aking sekretarya, ng subukan buksan ang pintoan ng kung sino man ang nasa labas.

The person behind the door push the door, kaya nakita ko kung sino ito. Napa-awang ang aking labi.

"Sir..... Pinigilan ko po siya, kagaya ng sabi ni miss Clari,  na huwag siyang papasokin sa opisina mo pero mapilit po siya."

Napansin ko ang pag-irap ng aking unexpected na bisita kay Jannet. Kailan pa siya natotong umirap? At sumimangot.?