All I Have (Armin X Reader)

Immortal

After returning to the wall Eren and Mikasa were imprisoned for fighting with Levi, so you and Armin were down there with them, because all of your questions weren't being answered you stayed up all night reading your father's journal, when you were suddenly snapped out of it by Eren screaming, jolting Mikasa and Armin awake

You: Eren?

Eren: where is this? Who...am I?

Armin: Eren, relax! Your in the stockades, you and Mikasa are serving time for your insubordination

Mikasa: were you having a nightmare Eren?

Eren: yeah...I was

Armin: you just said..."Who am I?"

Eren: huh?

Mikasa: you did, are you crying, Eren?

Eren:...I feel like...I just woke up from the longest dream ever...no...not a dream

You: were you seeing memories?...I've been feeling a bunch of jolts come from you all night

Eren: yeah...just now, I was connected to my dad's memories...that Titan, it was you...Dina...

You:...Dina...? That name...sounds familiar...

After some time Eren kept explaining what he saw in his dad's memories

Eren: the owl called it "The curse of Ymir" the founder Ymir lived that long after her powers awakened, so it's only appropriate we live that long too

Armin: I got 13 years left...and you...

Eren: eight years left...not even

Mikasa: your wrong, this has to be...a mistake...its wrong

Eren: if one possessing the power of the Nine Titans does without passing it on, the power is inherited by a baby yet to be born by a subject of Ymir, it's as if all the subjects of Ymir are connected by something we can't see one inheritor said they saw paths, the blood and bones that form a Titan, and at times, even memories and thoughts are sent through those paths, all the paths cross at a single coordinate, in other words, that's...the founding Titan

You sat across from Mikasa's cell, leaning against the wall as you read your father's journal

Armin: what's makes me curious *looks at you* when were you injected Y/n?

Eren: yeah your titan abilities came out of nowhere

You:...this journal...*flips pages*...it was my father's...he explained that since birth I had always been a shifter

Even: how is that possible? Thirteen years after your injected you die

Armin: if you were injected at birth then how are you still alive now?

You:...there are claimed to be nine titans and my father revealed the tenth one

Armin: ten shifters!?

You: yes, so far we have met eight, the Founding, Colossus, Armored, Female, Attack, Beast and the Cart titan as well and the Jaw titan which was Ymir...

Mikasa: your father knew all of this?

You: yes, the shifter we haven't seen is the War hammer titan...the Tenth Titan supposedly perished many years ago...my grandmother

Finally, you lifted your head up and looked at them

You: the Immortal titan

Eren: Immortal titan?

You flipped to the front of you book and began reading

You: this is the only shifter that is unaffected by the curse of Ymir, as the name implies the shifter cannot die from age, or natural causes

Eren: so, in your house...when you said you couldn't die...

You: *nods* it all dawned on me at once...I've died twice already

Mikasa: you've died before?

You: I survived the mess Annie made when she transformed, but on my way to you guys, a boulder flew from the sky and crushed me...that was the first time I died

Armin:...and the second time?

You:...*glances at Mikasa* when Reiner snapped my neck

Eren: what!?

Mikasa: you...died?

You:...*feeling neck* it was thanks to Mikasa that I revived faster than before...but...my mother forced this on me

Eren: forced?

You: she injected me only a few hours after I was born, the memories I've been seeing were hers...she killed her mother for this power...and killed thousands of people just to find her, and then...after realizing she alone couldn't save humanity...she wanted to die...and used me to escape her sins...

Armin: and your father accepted this?

You: not a bit...I was injected before he could stop her...*taps page* it says here he wanted to give me away but couldn't bring himself up to it...she used him to birth me, and used me too...once you all die...I'll be alone in this hell

Eren: but if you have a baby, you can avoid that!

You: my mother gave birth to me because I was her only way out, I'll never put that on my child...she made me bear it, so she wouldn't have to

Armin: Y/n...

You:...you wanna know why I can't die?...My immortality is a curse

Mikasa: a curse?

You: the first immortal titan...became a subject of Ymir...because they wanted to die

Armin: why!?

You: the first immortal was one of my late ancestors...they watched their love..and their child be beaten to death...with no one else they grew depressed and suicidal, and with no hope for Ymir and her subjects...he prayed on their downfall and was smiling at the thought of their death...only...

Eren: for his power to awaken

You: *nods* a cycle began after that, every shifter died by suicide, my mother did, my grandmother stopped fighting and allowed my mother to kill her...*shaking head* it'll happen to me too, probably once you all die and I'm alone...

Mikasa:...

Armin:...

Eren:...

You:...um, my shifter has only moved through...the same blood line...

Armin: the same bloodline?

Mikasa: the L/n bloodline?

You: no...Hojo

You flipped a few pages in the book and showed it to them

You: a family from beyond the wall...Hojo