His first Proxy

Confessions.

(this is the park later in the story. Imagine kids running around playing tag in the field) 

I woke up to the sun shining through the curtains. I groaned in annoyance before stretching and slowly climbing out of bed. I grabbed my phone from the dresser and scrolled through my music. Since i couldn't decide on a song i just put the list on random. The song 'Ruin my life by Zara larsson. Played and i smiled as i sang loudly as I walked over to my dresser and picked out my clothes.

(play song here) 

I miss you pushing me close to the edge
I miss you
I wish I knew what I had when I left
I miss you

You set fire to my world, couldn't handle the heat
Now I'm sleeping alone and I'm starting to freeze
Baby, come bring me help
Let it rain over me
Baby, come back to me

I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life, yeah
I want you to fuck up my nights, yeah
Fuck up my nights, yeah, all of my nights, yeah
I want you to bring it all on
If you make it all wrong, that'll make it all right, yeah
I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life
I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life, yeah
I want you to fuck up my nights, yeah
Fuck up my nights, yeah, all of my nights, yeah
I want you to bring it all on
If you make it all wrong, that'll make it all right, yeah
I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life

I miss you more than I thought that I could
I miss you
I know you missin' me too like you should
I miss you

You set fire to my world, couldn't handle the heat
Now I'm sleeping alone and I'm starting to freeze
Baby, come bring me help
Let it rain over me
Baby, come back to me (baby, come back to me)

I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life, yeah
I want you to fuck up my nights, yeah
Fuck up my nights, yeah, all of my nights, yeah
I want you to bring it all on
If you make it all wrong, that'll make it all right, yeah
I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life
I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life, yeah
I want you to fuck up my nights, yeah
Fuck up my nights, yeah, all of my nights, yeah
I want you to bring it all on
If you make it all wrong, that'll make it all right, yeah
I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life

I miss you, I miss you-ooh
I wish you, I wish you-ooh
Would come back, would come back to me
Come back to me, come back to me

I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life, yeah
I want you to fuck up my nights, yeah
Fuck up my nights, yeah, all of my nights, yeah
I want you to bring it all on
If you make it all wrong, that'll make it all right, yeah
I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life
I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life, yeah (ruin my life)
I want you to fuck up my nights, yeah
Fuck up my nights, yeah, all of my nights, yeah
I want you to bring it all on
If you make it all wrong, that'll make it all right, yeah
I want you to ruin my life
You to ruin my life, you to ruin my life

When the song ended I smiled happily to myself. I made my way toward the giant window in the room before gently pulling the curtains back. The sun shined bright as the scenery looked perfect for a walk. I smiled at the thought before heading to find Trender. I walked all around the house but couldn't find him anywhere. "Who you looking for doll?" The familiar raspy voice of Jeff called. I looked back to the raven haired as my smile vanished and i felt myself getting nervous. Masky's words repeated through my head as i watched Jeff walk over to me. 

"He loves you so stop playing cat and mouse and confess to him." 

Jeff stopped inches away from me as he twirled his knife around his fingers. "Well who are you looking for?" I gulped down the spit that clouded my throat. "I uh was looking for trender..." Jeff's eyebrows raised in question before lowering again. "He is out on business. Are you wanting something." I nodded my head shyly as i pointed toward the door. "Y-yeah i just wanted to go out for a walk is all." Jeff hummed as he stopped twirling his knife. "Trender said we were allowed to do anything as long as we were careful and wore our bracelets." I nodded to him as i turned to leave but was stopped when Jeff grabbed my wrist. "You don't mind if i tag along do you doll?" His smiled grew wider as he looked at me with pleading eyes. I sighed before nodding to him. "Good, i would of still tagged if you said no." I groaned knowing he would do something like that. I walked out the front door and down the drive with Jeff following behind me. I stopped at a nearby tree before turning to look at Jeff. He gave me a puzzled look as i spoke. "Change." 

He seemed to get the idea and tapped on his bracelet. I watched as his hair slowly shrinked and turned to a light brown. His eyes went to a dull blue before his eyelids grew back allowing thick eyelashes to grow. His smile healed itself while his skin tone turned from white to a light tan. Once everything finished changing i continued to stare at him. He soon caught me staring. "What?" He snapped. I shot my head side to side as i waved my hands in front of me. "N-nothing, nothing at all." I turned on my heel before continuing to walk ahead into town. Jeff jogged up to me before slowing to my pace once he was beside me. We walked in silence before we came upon a small park. I sat on a bench and watched the small children play and yell. I laughed at the scene, imagining what it would be like to have kids. The smile that was once on my face quickly disappeared as a frown replaced it. 

I could never have kids when i thought about it. I'm a merciless killer, and don't have time for a family. I shouldn't even be falling in love, but he is a killer too so would that make it okay? I snapped out of my thoughts as i felt a warm hand hold onto mine. I looked up through teary eyes to see Jeff with a worried face. "Hey what is wrong you are crying and staring at the children?" I looked back down as more tears fell. Jeff seemed to panic, not knowing what to do. His hand slowly left mine and my heart ached more. Oh how i wish he would never let go of my hand. His hands slowly trailed up to my face as he gently wiped away my tears. A small frown finding it's way to his lips. "Please tell me." I looked into his blue eyes and found myself grow calm once again. All of my worries, my sadness, and my fear disappeared with one look. "I-i just thought it was sad that i could never have a family of my own because of who i am." Jeff frowned harder as he looked to me. "Hey listen to me, anyone could have a family if they really wanted it. Anyone could find love. Even killers." That made me smile. 

"Anyone could find love huh?" I wondered allowed as Jeff let me go and i looked ahead to the children who were still playing. Jeff hummed as i looked to the ground, a small blush appearing on my face in the process. "Looks like i already found love." Jeff looked at me as his face showed shock but his eyes showed hurt. "Who?" He mumbled out. I could sense the pain in his voice as he looked to the ground and balled his fists. I looked at him with a smile and a blush. "You." His head snapped in my direction as my blush darkened. Part of me knew he liked me back but another piece was afraid that he didn't. A giddy smile formed on his face as his eyes lit up with happiness and joy. "I love you too!" Within seconds his lips found mine, and i felt fireworks go off. His lips were soft but chapped. I smiled as i kissed back. Moments later we broke for air and smiled like idiots. Jeff stood up as he faced  me. His hand found its way to mine as he motioned for me to stand. 

Once i did his hands shot to my waist as he picked me up and twirled me around. A light laugh escaped me as i smiled down at my new boyfriend. When he stopped spinning me i looked up at him since he was like 3 inches taller than me. "So what are we?" I asked in confusion. Jeff looked down at me as he intertwined our hands. "Isn't it obvious, girlfriend and boyfriend." I couldn't help but smile as we walked out of the park and towards home. 

'I'm truly happy.' I thought.