Between the Lines

CHAPTER X

 

'Why would you want to be with someone who couldn't even love her own self?'

Chloe remembered asking that to Beca. But the brunette just smiled at her, a genuine smile, before answering; 'Is it weird, though? I don't know, to be honest. But if it is you, hell, if you couldn't love yourself, then let me do the honors.'

She hated herself that she had never made an effort to show Beca how she felt… she had never even said those three words to the brunette who had been working hard enough to hear her say it. She hated that when everything's going well… and perfect, she had to be the one to mess it up.

It had been a week since that night. She rarely meets with Beca, she hadn't talked to anyone except for Aubrey. But she knew that the blonde had learned to befriend Beca. And she knew she would just share her burden with the blonde, and Aubrey would just find herself caught in between the two of them.

The thing is, Chloe had thought about things over. She knew she wanted Beca. But when Tom enters her mind… that's when she does not know anymore.

"Is she still asleep?" Chloe heard Beca's sad voice from just outside her room. She's grateful for Aubrey who always cover her up. She didn't really mean to avoid or ignore Beca, even Tom. She just couldn't get to face neither of them yet.

Tom hadn't taken back everything he had said. Which makes Chloe feel heavier.

"I'm really sorry Beca. She wouldn't talk to any of us." Aubrey apologized. The brunette nodded as she sighed in defeat. She knocked to Chloe's door, calling her name.

"Hey, Chlo. I'm not sure if I did something wrong or… I don't know, I can't understand what's going on. But please, at least talk to me or Aubrey… you know I'm always here for you, right? I love you, Chlo." Beca said with a soft tone, hoping that Chloe is listening.

She felt heavy and to say that she's worried would be an understatement. 

Aubrey felt her heart breaking for the tiny brunette. Though she could not get herself to hate Chloe, she knew that Chloe had been suffering as well. But this shouldn't continue any further, they might just tear each other apart.

While Chloe had been silently crying when she heard Beca in a subtle voice, she felt the sincerity and the pain in Beca's voice. She knew she shouldn't do this to Beca, she knew… Beca deserved better. Better than this, better than what Chloe was.

Beca smiled sadly at Aubrey, who's looking at her pitifully. "Text me if anything happens. Thanks." Beca said as she turned around to walk away. She was stopped when Aubrey mumbled a; "Chloe loves you."

Beca smiled as she tilted her head, nodding again at Aubrey.

"You're hurting her, you know." Aubrey stated as she looked at Chloe.

The redhead bowed her head down, she had lost count how many times she had cried for the past week.

"Isn't Beca supposed to be your obvious choice?" Aubrey added. The question spiked through Chloe's chest. That's the point, why couldn't she wrap her head and go on with Beca? 

"I'm such a terrible person, am I?" Chloe said, her voice cracking as she starts sobbing once again. Aubrey placed an arm around Chloe's shoulders as the girl resorted into heavy crying.