my brothers best friend

the missing pill

I get home. I thank Corbyn for the ride and run inside. I can feel his stare burning me. He knew something was up. I ran through the door. I looked through the spy hole and he was on his phone. I prayed he didn't ring jack. I turn round and isla is staring at me funny. Shes so cute. I smile at her. 'Why you sweating lyssie' I wipe my forehead. 'fuck' I whispered. 'Mummy! Alyssa said a bad word!' I rolled my eyes. My mum comes in and looks at me, she gives a worried look. 'You alright sweetheart?' I nod and sit down, 'just came back from therapy...I- well- it was hard' I slouch. I must look really ill or something because she starts touching my head. I swat her hand off me and walk upstairs, she watches me go upstairs. I close my door loud enough for her to hear it close but then I open it quietly. Something odd is going on. I sit by the door and pull the pink skull printed pill out. I play with it in my hand, then I hear a knock on the door...theres a load of whispering. I open my door slightly more and tip toe out, making sure I miss the creaky floorboards. I know which are which due to me sneaking out when I was 16. I sit by the stairs and listen. I hear my mum telling them something and then I hear Jack's voice and then the other boys. I sigh. What is going on. I still have the pill in my hand, i'm playing with it like its a toy.

I begin to get sweaty. Jack heads upstairs looking for me, He looks in my room but i'm not there. I'm quite hidden we have a statue on top of our stairs and im sat beside it and it's quite hard to find someone. I put the pill in my pocket and lightly run up to the balcony upstairs. I sit there watching the sunset. Jack heads back downstairs. I'm confused why there all here. Then two boys go out. Not sure which. 'Look, basically her therapist called saying the mdma pill she had in her room for experimenting is gone. Lys was the last person to see it.' my eyes widen. there all here to take the pill away. I need to dispose of it. But how?

I stand up and look over the edge and see Zach, Jonah and Daniel. Daniel spots me, he smiles. I wave, but I wave with the pill hand and he looks alarmed. My instant reaction is to swallow it. Fuck, why did I do that? Zach looks up. he then runs inside and I hear his footsteps bellowing up the stairs. I take a seat. 3 months sober and I already fucked it up. Zach sits in front of me, I'm sobbing. 'I didn't mean for this to happen, I wasn't planning on taking it until Dani saw me. I panicked. I'm screwed. Literally screwed.' I looked Zach in the eye. His face was soothing, I looked into his hazel eyes. Everything disappeared. 'Lyssie, everyone relapses. You are perfectly fine. We are all here to help you' He kisses my forehead. I put my head in my hands. 'I wish I was fucking normal.' I look at the balcony. 'imagine if I jumped, at least i'd be out of my misery' I whispered but Zach heard and shook his head, 'Don't, A. It isn't worth it.' I pushed him out of the way and looked over. Zach was sweet talking me out of it, but it wasn't working. 'Guys... someone upstairs now!' He shouted. No one came. I was sat on the ledge now. 'Jack, Dani someone. Come fucking now before she jumps!' he shouts louder. I cry. 'It isn't worth it anymore zachy' I smile at him. I stand up. Jack appears at the balcony door, 'Alyssa!' I turn round. I look him dead in the eye.

~Jack's pov~

I hear Zach calling for someone to come. I didn't think he needed 2 people up there. Surely that would over crowd her. I stand there and we're all whispering. She took the pill, Daniel says. I began to worry. As she wasn't in the best place anyways. Zach shouts louder this time except I hear ' before she jumps' and my instant reaction is to run to her. She couldn't do it, she wouldn't. I get there and I see her standing there, she was speaking to Zach. 'It isn't worth it anymore zachy' My heart broke. I was trying not to cry, I call her name and she turns round. She looks me dead in the eye. Her pupils were massive. She was high. I- I didn't know what to do. 'Mum...we need the police and fire birgade.' I shout. She starts panicking. I hear the back door open. I pray it isn't my mum. But it was. 'Alyssa!!' a high pitch screech sounded. That was mum's scared voice. Alyssa looked down. But you could tell there was no emotion anymore.

I saws Corbyn down there. Daniel and Jonah took my mum inside she was in hysterics. I could hear Isla screaming. 'Just let me go, I don't wanna live anymore' Alyssa shouted agitated. The neighbours were beginning to come out and watch. Fuck sake. I saw phones pointing and recording. 'Alyssa, i'm not going to let you do this. I love you, please come down safely' Corbyn says. I look at him and he looks meaningful. Alyssa stands there balancing one foot off the edge...