Together With Me (Thai Novel Fan Translation)

Chapter 30B

Editor's Notes: This one isn't as bad as the previous chapter. It's not. But there is still nothing pleasant about this one, either. I have pretty strong feelings about everything in both of these chapters, but I'm gonna keep my personal feelings out of it and just try to do my best in terms of writing and editing. 

A thing I would like to bring up before we continue: These are characters in a novel, not real people. And obviously TV Thunder changed the characters a lot to make them more palatable, with good reason. If they were real people, the police and EMTs would have been called, restraining orders would be filed, etc. But this isn't real life, and BL novels don't even try to be realistic because realistic relationships are boring as fuck. Politically correct stories are also boring. Partner rape is a REALLY common theme in BL novels. You know it's true. That's why people love soap operas and slap/kiss lakorns.  And for fucks sake horror movies for that matter; so we can watch horrible shit happen to OTHER people. 

Basically what I'm trying to say is NO FIGHTING IN THE COMMENTS, OKAY? Not here and not on my IG either. It's not like I enjoy deleting comments or blocking kiddos, you know! All that being said, you may now read on...

I woke up with an explosive headache and a battered body. It hurt more than all of our previous lovemaking sessions combined, surely because it was involuntary. It would have been awful even for women who was more physically designed for such activities, let alone me. I felt like every part of me had been torn apart.

Shaking my head, trying to shake away the cobwebs of uneasiness, I pulled myself up with the aid of the head board. I turned to look around and found Korn leaning against the doorway with his back turned towards me, smoking a cigarette.

I was relieved that his back was turned; I pondered for a moment whether I should walk out or pretend to still be sleeping?

Fuck it! This was not a TV drama, he'd actually seriously injured me! I would be lucky not to need a wheelchair.

I leaned against the headboard, savoring the moment of silence. While I was unconscious, Korn had cleaned me up. I could see that the blood and semen stains had been washed away and I was dressed in clean boxers and t-shirt. Perhaps he'd felt sorry for me, I didn't care what his reason was; I wouldn't have had the strength to do it myself. Absolutely everything hurt; even breathing was painful.

Now that I was awake, I tried to organize my thoughts. Thinking what to say to Korn, so our quarrel wouldn't get any worse. It seemed our love was coming to a dead end, and the slightest mistake could end everything for good.

In the moment, I admit that I had thought we should just break up; so I wouldn't have to face this pain. But all those thoughts were temporary and emotional, we're still in love. Even now, even after that horrible ordeal, I still loved him.

My mind was a chaotic mix of conflicting emotions. I kept rubbing my face, this situation was causing turmoil in me I was totally unfamiliar with. I'd spat cruel words at Korn last night, provoking him to take his revenge on me. That doesn't mean I wasn't fucking furious at him now; just because I wavered for a minute, did not mean that he had the right to do THIS to me. That was just ridiculous! I was considering this from a man's perspective; I knew I had made a mistake and was at fault, I knew all this happened because I was stubborn and bull-headed and provoked Korn who was just as stubborn and bull-headed as I was.  But still, that didn't give him the fucking right to RAPE HIS BOYFRIEND. To be honest, there were moments during that ordeal where I really thought he was going to kill me.  

"When did you wake up?" This was said in an expressionless tone,  and only then did I notice he'd come back inside the room.  He sat on the end of the bed, and I turned my face away from him to avoid his eyes.