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kisses

Kissing Kim Ahn Na is not the collision of stars. It is not cataclysmic. It is simple and small, flesh against flesh. Kissing Kim Ahn Na is organic, and that is what makes it poetry. 

It is not novocaine or nicotine. It is not the numbing of emotions but rather the coming-alive of his nerve-endings. It is the exact opposite of his moments with Eunjung. 

When his lips press against hers, it's an injection of confidence. Sometimes he plays with the idea of scratching his metaphorical itch. Sometimes, he thinks he's brave enough to explore the millions of explosions of his emotions. Sometimes, even, the Big Bang does not represent his future demise but rather his instantaneous creation. 

But other times, he wonders if he has simply traded one addiction for another. He no longer smokes, but he kisses Kim Ahn Na. He no longer drowns in the curves of Eunjung, but he drowns in the soft touch of Ahn Na's lips. And he realizes: either way, he's drowning all the time.