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The secret

DISCLAIMER THIS HAS SELF HARM IN IT, SO IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE READING ABOUT IT SKIP TO THE NEXT PART XX

Jess's pov
I woke up from a really bad nightmare, not realising that I fell asleep on George again, I got up so fast I woke him up on accident, I was in full mental breakdown mode, "hey hey, shhh, it's ok calm down, I'm here now nothing can hurt you" George said while pulling my head into his chest, I felt so protected and his words made me feel safe

I managed to calm down around about 15 minutes later, I pulled myself away from George
He wiped my tears with his thumb "I'm sorry" I whispered trying not to break down again
"For what darling?" He asked looking confused
"For waking you up" I said as a single tear streamed down my face
"Don't be silly" George said pulling me in for another hug which just made me emotional and I again cried
"You were upset and panicky of course I'm going to be there" he said stroking my hair

"What happened anyway?" George asked me curiously "nightmare" I replied and yawning at the same time
George looked at the clock "oh wow it's 3:10 am, tell me about it when we get up properly" he said rubbing my shoulder
I nodded George smiled, "let's go back to sleep" George said, I nodded, George opened his arms and nodded his head, telling me to "come here" I obviously accepted that offer and rested my head on his chest.

I could hear George's soft heart beats and I laughed, what I thought was quietly George heard me
"What's so funny?" George said giggling
"Nothing much, I can just hear your heart beating" I said trying to listen for it again
"Haha, well it only beats for 2 people" He Told me with a sigh
"Who?" I asked as I sat up, he then grabbed my hand and placed it on his chest "you and Jon" he said, I smiled so widely
And I wrapped my arms around George not wanting to let go I've never hugged George before, let alone anyone else, George is the one that normally hugs me, we stayed like this for about half an hour before i drifted off to sleep

I woke up and looked at the clock, it was 7:36 am then I looked at George who had his arms around me and was still sleeping
This is going to be tricky to get out of, I thought to myself
But I managed without waking him up and
Made my way over to my room where I pulled out my best friend who's never let me down, my razor...
I made my way over to the bathroom and pulled up my sleeve and looked for a spot that wasn't scarred or newly cut I found a few paces and cut
All of a sudden I heard a knock at the door "Jess you in there?" I heard George call "yeah I'm in here" I replied quickly pulling down my sleeve and hiding my razor in my pocket

"Are you decent?" He asked me "yeah I am" I replied and he entered
"You okay Jess, you look...down?" George said looking at me concerned
"Oh yeah...uh no I'm fine....I'm fine" I lied to him, I hated lying but this i just couldn't tell him
"I'm not stupid Jess, I know when something's bothering people, I'm good at figuring it out" he said crossing his arms and giving me a sassy look
"What's wrong?" He asked again but this time touching my arm the one I just cut, I flinched in pain

I then looked back to George who was going back and forth to me and my arm
He didn't say anything, he simply just pulled up my sleeve, I looked at the ground, the room was just silent
I couldn't bring myself to look at him, he'd hate me for sure, but little did I know I was wrong, he hugged me? I was confused and a bit shocked, "I'm gonna help you" he said pulling away and holding my face "I know it's hard but you cannot do this I won't let you, I refuse to let you do this, from now on I'm taking all the things out of your room that could possibly hurt you, but I'm not mad....how could I be learning the things you've been through, but this is a fresh start, I don't want to see any of this (he said point at my arm) cause I'm going to give you a life of unconditional love and support" he told me and kissed me on the tip of the nose
"You promise?" He asked me
"Yes George, I promise you" I said reassuring him "hey, your my family more importantly my daughter, you're the most important thing in my life, you're my main priority, and I'm your dad" he says pulling me in for a meaningful hug
"Dad" I whisper "yeah, dad" he whispered back "and I'll love you forever" he says "and I'll love you forever too" I tell him