It's been a few weeks since Mark has been visiting someone and not staying in my house. I sometimes caught myself thinking if he's okay, but why wouldn't he? I also caught myself daydreaming about him, too.
Since Mark has not been around, I always see him in my dreams. After the night he told me that he'd comeback, he always were visiting my dreams, and often times I couldn't help myself but to feel something, something I don't know if I'm allowed to even feel towards him.
"What's that?" I heard Hina said as she peeked behind me, I quickly locked my phone and shooked my head
"Nothing."
"Let me see." She insisted and grabbed my phone to look what I was typing on my notes, "dreams?"
"It may sound weird but let me explain."
"Let's close up shop first." Hina said, she knew it'll be a long conversation and I was thankful that she was willing to listen to anything.
Hina and I found ourselves sipping a cup of tea while we sat on the table in the cafè.
"You keep track on your dreams?" Hina asked as she was still reading my notes, "I don't get it"
"I've been dreaming about this guy lately." I confessed, "I mean, he already appeared in my dream once, like a few months ago but this time he kept appearing like every night."
"Do you know who he is?"
I wanted to tell her the truth, but she wouldn't understand. She might think I'm some kind of weirdo.
"No." So I lied.
"It seems like this guy has been dating you in your dream."
"The only problem is this.." I showed her the first time that Mark appeared in my dream, it was a short encounter but I can still vaguely remember it was him.
"Guy went over to me and hugged me tight. Then said thank you." Hina read "what's the problem with that?"
"That was my first time dreaming of him, the second time he appeared in my dream that I cab remember is this" I showed her the note entitled dream 5, "it was months after the first dream happened."
I showed Hina the dream wherein Mark was saying goodbye to me and I was begging him to not leave.
"Why were you begging him?" She asked, clearly confused
"I'm as much confused as you, Hina." I truthfully said
She kept quiet and started reading some other notes that I kept record off.
"Other than that dream, you 2 seem like you're having lots of fun. Going on walks at Han River, movies and even just casually lying around at home."
I agreed, the only thing that bothers me is that particular dream where he leaves me. Lately, he has always just been by my side and we're happy.
"I don't think I'd think about it too much, unnie." Hina said, giving my phone back and smiling at me "don't stress yourself too much over something you can't control."
I suddenly felt powerless because of what she said, but it was the truth. I can't control my dreams and I can't control my feelings, I can't control over the things that's happening with Mark and I. So why am I stressing over it?
I stood up and hugged Hina, and she hugged me back. Assuring me that everything will be alright.
I went home that night and was welcomed by Minhyung who was busy waiting for me to give him food. I chuckled and obliged to his request as I hurried to my room only to find that my bed was tidied up. For sure it was Mark.
