Always and Forever

Chapter 10- What Do You Feel?

Hope's POV~

After breaking into the school, I go to Lily's room. But she's not there. It looks the exact same as it was when I left. But it also looks like she hasn't been here in a while, meaning she's with her mom in Europe, having the time of her life, not thinking about me. Which is good. She shouldn't think about me. To everyone else, I don't exist, why wouldn't she act like that too.

I grab a bag from her closet and put clothes in it. I had always had a small pile of clothes in her room for when we did movie nights and stuff. I also pack the prism Lizzie lent me, which I found in the twins' room.

After that, I go to the bus station. It just seems right to leave. While waiting I pull out the prism. "Hey, this seat taken?" I look to my left and see Lily, making me smile. "Lily" "How do you know me? Sorry, too soon? There's no way I would ever forget you." she asks laughing, making me give a light chuckle as well. "You're just saying that because you know I want to hear it." I reply and she shakes her head. "That's not how this works. I'm kind if here to tell you the things you don't want to hear right? Besides, the real Lily remembers you, Hope." she comments and I look down. "Yeah, I guess so. I just really needed to see you. To hear your voice, your laugh." I say and she nods.

"Well, I'm happy to be seen. Well as happy as the magical holographic manifestation of your subconscious can be that is." She says and smiles. "So, what's going on in that pretty little head of yours Hope?" she asks looking at me. I smile before answering "I really missed your eyes." "Well, of course, my eyes are extremely dreamy. Just look at how they shine in the light of this bus stop we're at" she shoots back and bats her eyelashes. I just laugh before saying, "Yeah okay, I forgot how accurate this was."

"Well, that's because you know everything about me. Which is why you know what I'm about to tell you. Why are you leaving? Don't you think that I'd want to see you, Hope? I would want to know that you were back Hope. I thought you died, you heard my voice the night you jumped into the pit. We talked about me not leaving you. And you're doing just that. You leaving town is a stupid move and you know it." Lily says looking me in the eyes, I just shake my head. "I think you'd be furious with me for leaving you." I reply and she just shakes her head. "You and I both know that that's a lie. Hope I love you, and you love me, so don't leave without even seeing me first."

"You're not even here Lily, you're in Europe with your mom and Lizzie." I say and she stares at me blankly. "Are you sure? Because you only checked my room and the twins' room. You didn't check the docks, or the library, or the room where the piano that you gave me is in." "Okay, okay I get it. I didn't really look." I say looking at her. "Why? Why didn't you really look, Hope?"

"Because I was scared of seeing you with someone else like how Landon was with Josie!" I yell and she raises an eyebrow, waiting for me to explain further. I sigh, "Seeing them together made me realize that a lot has changed since I came back. And I don't think my heart can take it if I see you with someone else." When I said that, I started crying. It hurt to even think about, let alone see. "If you can answer this question correctly I'll stay." I say and she shakes her head "I don't there's an answer I can give you that will make you leave-" "Are you happy? Is everyone happier now that I'm gone?" I interrupt her and she doesn't answer.

"Right." I say nodding my head. "No. I'm not." She says and I shake my head "You don't know that, I haven't seen you-" "Exactly, Hope... You haven't seen me. So I'm answering based on the memories you have of every time we face timed and skyped over all the breaks when we weren't together. I was sad, because I didn't have my best friend with me." She says and I just look down. "Could you uh, could you give me a minute I don't really want to cry my eyes out in front of you the first time I see you, even if you are fake." I ask and she disappeared.