𝘿𝙤𝙣𝙩 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙫𝙚 | 𝘾𝙤𝙡𝙗𝙮 𝘽𝙧𝙤𝙘𝙠

nine

-Time skip-

It's been over a month since I've talked to Colby or even the girls. Colby's been doing good as far as I know. He's been doing good with his YouTube channel and the duo channel. They've been doing a lot of ghost videos and going to haunted hotels. I'm happy for him and I'm glad he's doing what he loves.

Lately I've just been in the studio making music. Mostly just to keep my mind off of Colby and the girls. I miss them so much but I think this is what I need. I don't really leave my apartment much, just because i'm scared i'll run into them somewhere. I'm still making YouTube videos which is fun but I feel like my fans aren't enjoying my content anymore. Which is my fault, I haven't been doing anything crazy lately, but it's hard to when I don't leave my apartment. When I'm ready I will but for now I don't think I can do it. 

I posted the video about Colby and I breaking up on YouTube and he posted on twitter about it. All his fans were supportive and sending nice things to us, it made me happy. I thought I was going to get a lot of hate but I'm so glad I didn't, it's not something I need right now anyways. 

My first ever single is coming out soon and I'm so excited for everyone to hear it. I've put a lot of my time and effort into this song within the last 2 months. The song's about Colby and I feel like it won't be hard to tell but I think this song is perfect. I'm releasing it on July 12th. What would've been Colby and I's one year. Maybe that's stupid but it wasn't my intention at first. The record company thought it would be a good date and I wanted to change it but the more I think about it the more I think it would be perfect. The song is called Ghost Camp. I haven't really talked much about it mostly because I want it to be a surprise. I'm gonna announce it a week before. I have a few other songs ready that I can put out but i'm going to put those on an EP instead of putting them out as singles.

I'm doing better, and I think that's all that matters.