Fuck Buddies ~xxxtentacion

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Shorter update today because it's 3am and I have school tomorrow😂

"Don't fucking do that" Jahseh yells pushing me down onto the couch he wraps his hands around my neck forcefully stoping me from breathing "what did I do" I ask gasping for air

"You fucked Ski! What the fuck is wrong with you" he yells louder in my face

"I'm sorry" I cried as his grip got tighter I dug my finger nails into his hand for him to let go but he didn't

"Get up and come with me" he says dragging me behind him, he forces me into the bathroom and pushes me into the full bathtub holding me underneath the water

I struggle to get him off me but he doesn't move I hear the words "fucking bitch" come out of his mouth multiple times before I black out

"Jaya wake up" "wake up" Jahseh shakes me out of my sleep

Jahseh

"What happened" she mumbled rubbing her eyes "you had a bad dream you okay?" I ask and she nods lightly before looking around the livingroom

We was laying on the couch together watching a movie then she fell asleep

"Where's Ski?" She asks and I laugh a little

"You can't hear that?" She shakes her head and goes silent listening to the faint moaning from upstairs

"Nasty" she mumbles before laying her head back on my chest

"Jahseh"

"Hm"

"Do you love me?" She whispers in my ear

"Of course I do dumbass" I say and she smiles

"So...do you ever think that we'd get to the point of being in a coupl-"

I cut her off "no we're not doing that" I say and she looks at me

"But we kiss all the time and act like a coupl-"

I cut her off again "Jaya no"

"So what's all of this for then?" She asks and I sigh

"Jaya we fuck eachother because we like sex and we both like the feeling that's it, nothing more" I sigh deeper

"I know but we're always kissing and-"

"Jaya shut the fuck up"

"...Jahseh, don't talk to me like that" she mumbles getting up off of me

"But your being stupid and asking stupid questions when we've already spoken about all of this"

"I know but it's like your not taking my feelings into consideration, I don't understand you...because if I go and fuck someone else you'll be so mad at me, but then you don't want to be official with me, it doesn't make sense Jahseh"

"Jaya im not talking about this anymore" I mumble looking at my phone

Jaya

I sigh grabbing my shoes and putting them on "where you going?" He asks "home" I mumble

"Just sit down what's wrong with you...stop being a little bitch" he says and I don't reply

I put my hoodie on and leave the house closing the door behind me

Ski lives about a 15 minute walk from my house so I just walk home slowly gathering my thoughts

Maybe my dad was right and he is taking advantage of me...but Jahseh wouldn't do that..would he?

I unlock my door front door and walk in locking the door behind be

I go in my room and close the door before pulling all of my clothes off apart from my oversized T-shirt and panties

I look over on my bedside table and see Polaroids of Jahseh all spread out on his side of my bed

I look at them and can't help but cry, yeah we're "fuck buddies" or "friends with benefits" or whatever you wanna call it but I do have genuine feelings for him that I want to take further instead of just expressing them through sex

I get disturbed from my thoughts when I get a message from Jahseh

Jah❤️: stop crying
Me: how do you know
Jah❤️: your mom messaged me
Me: I'm just upset and need space right now talk to you later
Jah❤️: ight don't do no dumb shit
Me: dumb shit like what?
Jah❤️: hurt yourself
Me:mhm I won't
Jah❤️:love you

I wipe my tears from my face and go into my top drawer taking out my antidepressant, I take two and put them back then get under my covers cuddling the stuffed bear Jahseh got me for my birthday last year, he sprayed a lot old spice cologne on it so it could remind me of him all the time

All I've done today is sleep but I'm not in the mood to do anything else but sleep

I close my eyes and slowly dose off

I need y'all to answer two questions
1. Why do you think Jahseh doesn't want a relationship
2.why do you think Jaya wants a relationship❤️

Thanks for reading, it's shorter then usual but it's still something💕- Liyah