I'll be There

Chapter 18

"Ethan Grant, will you do me the honor of being my boyfriend?" I was stunned. The guys all awed and gushed in background buy I couldn't bring myself to not stare at Grayson.

" Gray clearly, for me you didn't even have to ask."
"So that's a yes then?!" Grayson asked eagerly with pure excitement to his voice.

"It's a yes Gray!" Grayson immediately picks me up and pulls me into a kiss. Our lips lock perfectly together and our mouths move openly in sync. That is until we hear Jason clearing his throat. We pull apart but still maintain our embrace with giddy smiles that matched.

"Sorry. Didn't mean for you to stop. My throat was just dry because that was fucking hot."
"Jason!" Andrew reprimands as he swiftly smacks Jason on the arm.
"What we were all thinking it!" Frankie nods along quickly in agreement.
"Well maybe not Tatum."

We all laugh full loud genuine laughs. Grayson and I make our way to the couch and settle ourselves into a comfortable position.

"Oh man before I forget, happy birthday!" Andrew says handing Grayson and wrapped rectangular "gift".
"What? Dude I wasn't even planning on being here today you know you didn't have to get me anything. Grayson says as he unwraps the item in his hand. He sees that's it is in fact his xbox that he leant the boys. A mischievous smile sat on Andrews face. Grayson looked up at his clearly amused but unwilling to admit it.
" You suck you know that. " Yet the mood was so light that our combined laughter continued.

* Later that night*

Grayson and I made our way back to our apartment walking arm in arm the whole way.
"I'm sorry we didn't get to do any of the things I had planned. I promise I'll make it up to you" I said as I unlocked the door. As soon as I stepped inside I was pushed up against the wall, hungry lips meeting my unsuspecting ones. Shock caused my mouth to stay open allowing my mouth to be ravished as firm yet gentle hands held me in place by my hips. Grayson pulled away slowly leaving me in a daze.
"How many times do I have to tell you to stop apologizing for things that aren't your fault?"
Grayson said with his forehead pressed against mine.
"Sorry.. shit. Sorry. Wait. I uh I suck at not apologizing." I say through an amused chuckle as I feel my cheeks redden.
Grayson finally closes the door behind us taking a step closer to me causing our bodies to be flush against each other's.

"I wish you could see yourself the way I see you. You don't owe a single soul an apology. You're perfect and gorgeous. Sexy even." His voice just barely a whisper as his lips ghost over my ear. He pulled back and took a long look at me maintaining eye contact.

My jaw was slack with surprise as all I could do was gulp in response.

Grayson leaned in again pausing right before his lips touched mine. He looked into my eyes searching for matched emotions that are most certainly shared. I leaned forward and closed the gap connecting our lips slowly. His tongue slipped into my mouth as his hands slipped from my hips to my thighs as he gripped them strongly and picked me up effortlessly causing me to gasp quickly as my legs wrapped around his waist. He moved effortlessly through our living room and made his way to what is now practically our bedroom laying me down flat on his bed as his body was pressed against mine never breaking the kiss.
My legs stayed wrapped around his waist causing his body to continually pull into mine creating friction and a rhythm. Grayson's lips parted from my mouth as his hands slid under my shirt and began to feel at my chest and stomach. His lips met my neck desperately sucking and biting as my hands gripped into his hair and back. Grayson pulled away suddenly pulling my shirt off completely and immediately followed with his. He went right back to my neck clearly enjoying our skin on skin contact. His hands explored my upper half curiously but also with want and passion. Meanwhile my hands continued to trace the muscles on his back. I've dreamed of touching him this way for so long. I'm cut off from my thoughts of by Grayson's hand drifting from my stomach to my crotch. He slowly slipped his hand into my pants and palmed at my aching member. His other hand began to slowly slide down my sweats. I didn't realize until I felt a breeze that he was taking my underwear with it as well. He kissed his way down my stomach until his warm plump lips met my tip. Before I even had time to process Grayson took my full length into his mouth taking me by surprise and causing me to buck up. He gagged but continued to swirl his tongue expertly. My hand slid into his hair and tugged sharply as my mouth hung open and labored breaths left my mouth. Grayson pulled away. My eyes snapped open and met Grayson's. Much to my surprise he was already staring at me causing me to feel strangely self conscious. I began to squirm in an attempt to cover up. Grayson picked up on the shift in mood and began to kiss up my thigh up to my stomach and chest all the way to my neck. This caused my whole body to shiver.
"Do you want to?" Panic set in. I sat up and Grayson backed away immediately.
"Oh god. Did I go too far? Should I not have-" I cut him off.
"I've never done this before Gray."
"What do mean? You lost your virginity at the same age as me plus you were with a different guy at almost every party till College." He said confused and without hesitation causing me to shrink into myself at those distant memories.
"I've had sex Gray. Lots of it." I couldn't help but cringe at the thought of what I was gonna say next.
"But it was never meaningful." Grayson looked at me with an unreadable expression.
"What? I know your first time wasn't the most romantic but there were other guys. You never had a connection with any of them?" He says genuinely trying to understand.
"Gray my first time was with a random guy who's name I can't remember in Matthew Thompson's upstairs bathroom. Against the sink. Plus I was drunk. In fact I can't even remember the last time I had sex sober." I stated bluntly and let it fully sink in.
"You uh you left that part out when you told me about it." Grayson said still trying to figure out how to respond.
"I've never been in love with anyone but you a Gray." I couldn't believe after all these years I was finally saying it out loud.
" I had no idea."
"Not exactly something I'm proud of."
"Let me change that." I looked up from fiddling with my fingers.
"What?"
"Let me me change that. Let me make love to you Ethan." I looked at him with hopeful eyes.
"I'm in love with you and I only want to treat you right. I'm not gonna just sleep with you and run. I'm in this. For the long haul E."

Without a second thought I pounced on Grayson. Our lips crashed together as I flipped us over with me now straddling his waist. He held my hips securely as I began grinding my hips into his. It wasn't long before I realized that I was the only one completely naked so I tugged at Graysons pants he quickly got the hint and had his off in seconds. He resumed our positions immediately. Becoming frustrated with just the friction of our bodies I take both our lengths in my hand and begin pumping. I go slow at first then pick up a steady pace that has us both gasping moaning messes. I'm completely lost in pleasure and have absolutely no problem cumming like this until I'm snapped back into my senses by Grayson's voice.
"Don't *pant* wanna *heavy pant* cum like this." So I begin to slow down immediately and stop pumping all together shortly after. Grayson resumes our heavy tongued kiss as a way to compensate for loss of friction.
Grayson pulls away suddenly. "Wait." He said with no explanation getting up and leaving the room. Leaving me laying there naked, vulnerable and confused. I figured Grayson would come back quickly but after a couple of minutes of him being gone I got concerned and began to feel very self conscious. I covered myself up with Gray's blanket and curled myself into a ball. "Did he finally realize he doesn't wanna be with a man. Or maybe he just realized he doesn't want to be with me." My thoughts were interrupted by Grayson's door flying open and the blanket being ripped off of me. Before I could even ask any questions Grayson was on me, kissing me like he never left. I let my concerns fade away until I'm snapped out of it once again by Grayson. He pulled away slightly and whispered "top or bottom?" Now I knew this was leading to sex but for some reason I did not see this question coming. "Um. What?"
"Top or bottom? Which do you prefer ?" He says pulling out the condoms I kept in my nightstand."
"How'd you know where I kept my condoms ?" I asked genuinely confused.
"I found them a while ago when I was cleaning your room. I just couldn't remember what drawer it was in. Was I gone long?"
"Yeah. You were. I was worried.. I thought you changed your mind.."
"What?? E I've never been more sure of anything in my life than being with you. Here. Tonight." He said pulling me into a hug kissing the top of my head alleviating by worries immediately.
"I'm usually a top.." I say hesitantly which Grayson seems to pick up on.
"But um.. I think I want to bottom tonight. I think I just need to feel safe and comforted." I say looking into Grayson's eyes timidly. He's already looking at me. He leans in and kisses me slowly, laying me flat on my back. His lips part from mine and trail down to my jaw then neck then chest. His hand slid from my hips and move down allowing his fingers to slide into me. He begins to stretch me slowly kissing a nipping at my neck lovingly. He pulls away and presses his forehead to mine. Maintaining eye contact. "Are you ready?"
I respond by nodding eagerly.
He slowly slips his length into me. He sees the pained expression on my face and and kisses my forehead gently. He stills above me for a moment before beginning to move. His pace quickens and so does our breathing. My nails dig into his back and slide up his body to tug on my hair. This causes Grayson's pace to increase as well as our panting in unison. He attaches his lips to mine tenderly in one final desperate kiss. His lips separate from mine as his face falls into the crook of shoulder as his thrusts becomes erratic. He cums suddenly biting down on my shoulder in the process. I follow seconds later tugging at his hair and breathing ragged. He stills above me again allowing our breaths to steady. He pulls out slowly and lays his head on my chest wrapping his arms around my waist. I couldn't help but admire him. His beauty. He's literally glowing right now.
"I love you Grayson. You've done so much for me. I'm just so fucking in love with you." I couldn't keep these words in any more.
Grayson looked at me adoringly. A look I've always wanted to see come from him. One I'm still getting use to. It takes my breath away to see so much feeling come from him. Grayson pulls me in tighter and places his lips gently on my mine. Kissing me. Our tongues moving against each other languidly. He parts from me. Ever so slowly, staring into my eyes.
"Ethan, I've always told you. No matter what it is, if it has to do with you. I'll be there."
Even though I always knew that to be true I never realized until this moment just how much he meant it.

Fin.

** Authors Note
My first completed work. Ever. All I can say is I'm glad people got to read it. I really hope it was enjoyed.