my life is taking a downhill right now
why can't it be 2010 when i was happy and filled with happiness in my life. i felt loved and when i cried was when i stubbed my toe. now i cry myself to sleep. i never thought i would cry so much in my life. i wanna hurt myself to bad but i know i would be hurting the ones who want me to get better but i just don't think why am i even in this planet. why am i still breathing. what's so important about life what's so good about life. what's the point of loving someone when there gonna leave in the end. what's the point of faking a smile all the time when people think your happy. just because someone is laughing and smiling doesn't mean there happy. the best disguise is a smile on someone's face when deep inside there breaking apart. there torn.i really want my old life back. i want the old friends i used to have.we used to go outside and be soo childish we used to do anything that would come to mind. and now i barely talk to them one is having girlfriends being the player he is . one is living life.one is like me broken inside. why does life have to be so complicated. what did i do this time to get payback. i should of enjoyed my childhood when it lasted because now the girl that was once daddy's perfect angel isn't daddy's girl anymore. i can't even look at a picture of my dad because it tells me that he never acted like a father to me. he was a complete stranger to me. my sister she's perfect. good grades. good looks anything you could think of. if i showed you a picture of her you wouldn't think we're related. she's the perfect one and i'm the broken one. my 8 year old self wouldn't be happy for me.
just why does life have to be this way
why does life even matter at this point.
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the suicide mind
Poetry"and you left me with bad habits like cracking my knuckles and wearing your sweater because the smell of you still lingers. you left me chewing at the skin of my skin on my lips because maybe just maybe if it's gone the taste of you will be too, but...
