Collision Course

Chapter 29: If Only

Eliot's POV

I wander around the forest wanting to be alone with my thoughts when all of sudden I somehow find myself at what the people of Auradon call the Enchanted Lake, but to me it is another watering hole just with fancy surroundings and so called magic water. I take a few deeps breaths trying to get myself together not just physically but also mentally and emotionally, you see I have been caring a secret around with me for a very long time and no one not even my family of The Descendants know.

 Eliot: A million thoughts in my head. {I throw a stone watching it skip along the surface of the water.} Should I let my heart keep listening? {I toss another stone angry in the water.}

Cause up 'til now I've walked the line. {I run my fingers through my blue hair.} Nothing lost but something missing. {I run my finger over my white Yin pendant that is half of my friendship necklace with Mars.}

 I can't decide what's wrong, what's right. {The memory of me getting ready to jump from the tower but before I can fling myself out of the window the door busting open as Mars walking in and talked me off the ledge and helping me escape the tower.} Which way should I go? {All the memory of Mars and I hanging out around the Isle.}

If only I knew what my heart was telling me. {I lean against the stone pillar.} Don't know what I'm feeling, is this just a dream? {I know that I feelings for Mars that go past friendship, but I am not sure what to do about them because I don't want to lose Mars.} Ah-oh, yeah. {I know what I feel in my heart but I have never admitted out loud before.}

 If only I could read the signs in front of me. {The memory of me really looking at Mars for the first time while he talked to me about the stars.} I could find the way to who I'm meant to be. {The turning point in our lives when all four of us watched as our siblings went off to Auradon.} Ah-oh, if only. {The memory of catching Mars in only his boxers for the first time as Mars explained to me all the scars on his body.} If only. {Mars and I sharing a bed because Mars was exhausted.} If only. {I shake my head wanting these thoughts and feeling to go away.}

Every step, every word. {I try to keep my distance from Mars but is not easy when he is your best friends and all you want to do is be around him all the time.} With every hour I am falling in. {I owe Mars my life because without him I wouldn't be here right now.}

 To something new, something brave. {I just can't fight the feeling that if the truth came out about me that everyone that has ever known me would look at me different.} To someone I, I have never been. {I can feel myself starting to slowly change the longer we stay here in Auradon.} 

I can't decide what's wrong, what's right. {The memory of the day when Heidi who was actually Hayden running to us because she was trying to figure out who we were.} Which way should I go? {The memory of Mars and the rest of us coming up with our plan.}

If only I knew what my heart was telling me. {The memory of Mars and I watching the barrier come down for good the look we shared with each other as we both think that today is start of the rest of our lives.} Don't know what I'm feeling, is this just a dream? {The memory of the four of us arguing with each other about crossing the line from the Isle to Auradon.} Ah-oh, yeah. {I take a deep breath pushing myself and the memories that flash through my mind out of my way and I start slowly walking around each pillar trying to get me head back on track.}

If only I could read the signs in front of me. {I wish I knew what the right thing to do is.} I could find the way to who I'm meant to be. {Should I listen to my heart and confess my feelings to Mars?} 

Ah-oh, if only. {Should I listen to my head telling to keep everything to myself and let Mars get his happily ever after by settle down with the girl of his dreams.} Yeah. {I walk to the edge close to the enchanted water wondering if I drank it would it help me make the biggest decision of my life.}

Am I crazy? {I slowly kneel in front of the water.} Maybe we could happen, yeah. {I look deep into the water and see Mar's reflection in the water.} Will you still be with me when the magic's all run out? {I run my hand through the water as I feel tears fill my eyes.}

 If only I knew what my heart was telling me. {The memory of us arriving in Auradon in the middle of the night.} Don't know what I'm feeling, is this just a dream? {The memory of the night at the museum that we took the stuff we needed.} Ah-oh. {I kip ups to my feet wanting this torn feeling in my heart to go away.}

 If only I could read the signs in front of me. {What would Mars do if I told him the truth?} I could find the way to who I'm meant to be. {Do I really want to know the answer to that question?} Ah-oh. {I am more confused then I think I have ever been in my life.}

If only, yeah. {I hear Charlotte telling me to listen to your heart.} If only, yeah. {I hear Juliana telling me to listen to your head.} If only, yeah. {Charlotte telling me to listen to your heart.} If only. {Juliana telling me to listen to your head.} if only. {Charlotte telling me to listen to your heart.} If only. {I turn around to block out Charlotte and Juliana only to see Mars who just staring intently at me.}

 I close my eyes finishing up the song and when I open my eyes again Mars is gone and I am back being alone at the Enchanted Lake, "Things are getting out of hand, I am not sure how much longer I can stay in Auradon." I say out loud taking a couple deep breaths thinking that the longer I stay here the more I feel like wanting to tell Mars the truth, but I know that right now is not the time. I throw one more rock into the water before heading out the Enchanted Lake and towards our hide out.

 Third Person

A 7-foot-tall wolf with pure white fur and a light blue streak down his back watches Eliot intently from the safety of the shadows until Eliot vanishes out of sight. Once the large wolf is sure that Eliot won't be returning it takes a deep breath and carefully steps foot into the Enchanted Lake.