Darkness

Ch. 11: wishes (P, R, V, POV)

FW: depression, mention of self-harm

Patton's POV

as logan desperately tried to pull Virgil back to reality, I sat in Virgil's chair, Crying, still, Roman was next to me, trying to calm me down. I don't wanna lose Virge... we just got him back to his normal... not so anxious state... or at least... I hope we did. 

after about an hour of trying, Virgil's eyes slowly opened. "Virgil!!" I jumped up, Logan had a small smile on his face, so did Roman.

silence, Virgil just stared... wide eyes at us.

"Virgil?" I took a step to him. He hissed. Nothing new with that... except... he has never hissed at me... and he had.... f-fangs. I took a step back... terrified... 
"V-Virgil?" I looked at the others. they looked terrified too.

"g-get o-o-out," Virgil said very quietly

I didn't have to be told twice, I turned around and left the room. so did Logan... But roman wasn't moving. "come on roman"
"no" he snapped at me. my face showed shock, I could feel it

"Get Out" Virgil stood up, "now" he hissed

"No." Roman took a step to him

then, out of nowhere, Virgil lunges at Roman, Roman moves out of the way, Virgil turns around and Punches him square in the face.

"Virgil... This i-isn't like y-you" I said, my voice trembling

"You never knew me! You never cared!" He looked at me, "Why do you guys care so much about me now?!?!" He looked mad, but he wasn't lunging at me. So I didn't move. My breathing unstable... I feel the tears coming again

Roman's POV

"That's not true!!" Patton says, tears forming. He is right tho.... we didn't care.... why... why do we care... why do I care so much...

that word appeared in my head again

love

n-no th-that isn't i-it

I d-don't l-like V-Virgil.... n-not l-like that

"Just leave me alone" he growls, pushing me out of his room. I let him. and he slams his door. all of us stood in silence..... then... we all slowly left to our rooms, not saying anything

Virgil's POV

After pushing Roman out of my room I break. Tears silently fall down my face.

he cant be back... no one... no one can know that he came back..... if they found out.......

I hear them walking away. once all their doors close then I walk to the bathroom, grab my hidden box. Grabbing the piece of metal.... putting it to my arm

knock knock

"Virgil?!" I hear Patton's voice

"wh-what?" I quickly put the box away, trying to be as quiet as possible

"what are u doing?" I hear him getting a little closer to the door

"j-just going to th-the bathr-room" I try to keep my voice steady

"don't lie to me" He says sternly 

"i-im n-not" my voice shaking despite my attempts to stop it

"kiddo please...." I can hear the tears in his voice

"im....." I don't know what to say

"let me in" The tears start to roll down my face again, I unlock the door and within a second the door was open and Patton pulled me to the floor in a hug. Both of us just crying...... on the floor... of a bathroom...

it felt good to get it out

but I would rather have Roman here

wait... What?!

I did not just say that

I don't like roman like that!!!

or....

or do I?