He's All I Have

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The Revelation

A week had passed. Time for fun and games was over. I had to choose a course and a university as soon as yesterday.  It was a couple of days before applications permanently closed and I still had no idea what I wanted to do.  I had to make up my mind and I had to do it fast. 

My mind rewinded to yesterday's word. The speaker had talked about choices. Ironic isn't it?  I had a lot of those to make this week and such things just made me believe God had an incredible sense of humour.  She had said that when making decisions make sure you get led by God instead of trying to have God sign off on an already made decision.  That wouldn't be a problem for me in this specific case though,  because I had no idea what I wanted to do.

I honestly did not know much about the Christian faith at this point,  but I'd like to believe that I knew what I needed.  I could pray and that's exactly what I did. Schools had just reopened and Lucy had gone to school. My dad had headed off to work and my mom was out there selling her stock. I had time alone and I decided to invite someone else to spend it with me.

"Dear heavenly father. I don't know how to do this praying thing but Abby told me that prayer was just talking with God and today I just want to talk to you. It's so funny how a few weeks ago I didn't know of you and your power and just how good you are but now, I can be here doing this. I need to decide on what school to go to. I'm not sure so please help me make the right decision.  I would like it if it was a faraway school as well. Amen." I prayed.

I'd prayed and I still didn't know what I wanted to do. I wished it was an easy decision. I sighed as I just felt tired. I closed my eyes to rest, even just for a moment. 

"But I don't want to do it. Its too hard" the voice pleaded as I walked through the garden. As I got closer to the fountain I started to see that the girl was speaking to someone but she was facing away from me. I kept moving towards the voice. "TC, " another voice spoke, "I just want you to trust me. Don't go anywhere. Stay and again, trust me". TC? That's me? Now that I looked d closer, I realized that it was me. I couldn't see who I was speaking too though. For some reason, I just couldn't. "But I've wanted to leave all my life. This is my chance." I pleaded once more. "Don't go, trust me" he said.

I woke up with a start. What an interesting dream. I felt goosebumps on my skin. Never had  a dream felt so real. "Don't go" the words echoed in my head once more. I knew God was speaking to me. I just knew. Why would I have to stay? I wanted to go, leave this place. I had planned this my whole life. I mean if I left I would be able to go to church freely. No more chores or being treated like a kid. It's what I wanted!

Maybe it was just a dream. I dream stupid things all the time. This is just one of them. My mind probably made it up, no need to get worked up. I would just find a university away from home and just leave. Now that sounded more like it.

A part of me knew that I shouldn't but I pulled out an application form for Westrow University, the most popular university of all. It was an 8 hour drive from my house, had  really good reviews and was regarded highly by everyone. This was just perfect for me, so I filled in the forms. I ticked on medicine and health sciences. When I was done, I took the forms to the application centre they had set up in our little town. The lady there reviewed everything including my results. Her face lit up.

"You will definitely make it in." I smiled from ear to ear. "With results like these, it's impossible not to." She emphasised.

I thanked her and made my way home. I knew my parents would not be entirely happy with me moving so far away but I knew every parent would be proud of having their child make it into Westrow. To ease their minds, I passed by our community college and filled in their application. It looked great but it was no Westrow. I didn't want to end up here.

Over the course of the next week my parents were satisfied with my choices and we awaited results. With what the lady had said, I would make it in. What could possibly go wrong?

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ThatChristianKid

27/03/2020