there is so much to say
the good
the bad
the broken parts
of both of us
so I'm not sure
exactly where
to startBut I remember
being young
and feeling like
I could tell her
everythingAnd at some point
I lost that
there were times
when she could've
reacted better
and me
being young
I took everything
so personallyBut I'm older now
and I've forgiven her
for all the damage
she caused meAnd I hope
she's forgiven me
for all the rage
I held inside me
for so longBut I remember
all the conversations
we've had
about all anything
and everything
conversations
that have made me
feel so totally
seenAnd I remember
all the tears
we've cried
all the laughter
we've shared
all the stories
we haveThe time
her car broke down
and we sat
and talked
and laughed
for hours
we had the time
of our lives
just simply
being
with one anotherAnd I remember
all the love
she has shown me
the same love
that led me
to the God
that I loveAnd how could I not
love my mother?The way she smiles
so wide when she's
with me,
despite the chip
in her tooth
that she's so
insecure
aboutThe way she looks away
when she cries
because a part of her
still wants
so badly
to be strong
for her kidsThe way she sings
quietly,
like she's
hesitant
to be heard
in the most
vulnerable
of waysThe way she smiles
when I ask
for something
because she loves
doing things
for her children
and she knows
that I find it hard
to ask for thingsOde to my mother
in all her imperfections
her strengths
and her weaknesses
I am writing
this poem
because I love her
YOU ARE READING
SUNFLOWER BABY
Poetry"but we kept secrets from time, and I saw constellations in your smile . . . " [[ a series of poems ]]