What if

Chapter 6

Kara's pov

At this point I couldn't decide if I dreamed it or Lena actually said to me last night that she loved me.

My anxiety reached its highest level.

I woke up earlier than her. I couldn't help but turn to her side and admire the sleeping beauty next to me.

As I stroke one lock of her hair behind her ear she started to wake up

'Good morning, Lee' I said happily

'Good morning, Sweetie' her voice is still raspy from sleepiness.

I swear to Rao until this moment I thought her laugh is the best sound in the universe but now I realise I was so wrong.

Her morning voice is the best.

'Hey Kara, are you there?' her voice brings me back to her

'Ohh yeah, sorry, my mind zoomed out for a moment'

'I could tell' she is laughing at my silliness as always and I love it

'Coffee?' she smiles at me

'You know how to treat a girl right, don't you?' I have no idea why I said it to her but now both of us are bright red

'What can I say... I try my best' she is still red

We get up and she handle me some of her clothes to change into it. Of course we change in separate room so I choose the bathroom to get ready.

That's when I realised what she gave to me. It's a tight, black dress.

I mean she is my best friend so she should know, that except that one incident with red kryptonite, I don't wear things like this for a reason.

They're uncomfortable and shows to much of my body but since I don't have any other chance I have to wear it anyway.

I step outside just to face with Lena in her blue suit.

My jaw drops amd I could tell she feel the same about my outfit too.

Her eyes color changed from kryptonite green to smaragd green and I honestly can't choose which one is better.

'Kara you look amazing' she found her voice

I don't know what comes to me but suddenly I felt an urge to surprise her so I walked past her and kissed her cheek as I whisper into her ear

'Look who is talking' just to know her reaction I listened to her heartbeat and I felt a little bit guilty because her heart skipped a beat and than started to beat very fast.

Rao I didn't meant to give her a heart attack but still it was funny

'Aren't you coming?' I ask her above my shoulder

'If you would know' I love that sometime she forget about my super hearing but right now my heart beat is the one which is not so stable.

We cool down a little bit and made some coffee and breakfast for both of us. I ordered her to eat a little with me since I know she won't eat anything during the day.

Honestly I wouldn't mind if my mornings were like this for the rest of my life.

'How are you, Sweetie?'

I started to rumble about how good I feel that I could stayed with her and be this lucky to spend the morning with her and random things like that

She started to laugh at me again

'What did I say wrong?' I was confused as hell

'You haven't said anything wrong. I glad you feel this way but my original question was about how do you feel about the anti-kryptonite injection.'
she reached above the table to stroke my left cheek.

I got so red and shy suddenly

'Hey Kara, there is absolutely no need to be embarrassed around me, okay? I feel the same but I really need to know the answer okay?'

'So... I don't have a fever or a headache or anything like that, but we should still test it out.'

'Yeah about that, I speak with Alex while you were in the bathroom and I asked her if I could be there when she runs all those tests on you and she said yes. So after the breakfast I drove you to Catco to work, strictly indoor works and researches tho, and after I pick you up at lunchtime and we drive ve straight to the DEO, how does it sounds?'

'Awful... Why couldn't I come to you at lunchtime so we would still have our special launch together?' I pout a little bit

'Does it that important to you?'

'Sure it is!' I say proudly

'Than you can come to my office but promise me that you write me when you left the building and you have 10 minutes to get here otherwise I call Alex, understood?' Rao I love when she is bossy with me

'Understood and also thank you for worrying about me' I reach for her cheek and put a small kiss on it.

I swear her cheek became slightly rose again.

'Always' she says it easily

A few memories came back from the last game night when I asked her if she was on my side and she said always and after a few weeks it turned out she wasn't anymore

'Did I say something wrong?' she asks curiously

'Uhhmm no... I guess no' I became shy and vulnerable again

'Kara don't hide from me. You can tell ms just don't block me out' she grabs my hands in hers and looks deep into my eyes.

'You said it to me and after that we started to fall apart and I couldn't reach you to fix it. That was the last time I heard "Always" from your mouth and after a few weeks I learned that meant nothing to you that day' I started to cry agin 'I know it wasn't you back then but still it hurts sometimes. I know you are a different person in some ways because I wasn't a coward and told you in time. I know we' re closer to each other than we've ever been.... I think I have PTSD from losing you. As silly as it sounds It's true. I've lost so much and losing you, losing our friendship were similar enough to losing Krypton and all this emotion mixed together triggered my anxiety which triggered my PTSD... ' at this point both of us is crying

'Kara come here' she opens up her arms

I stand up and make my way towards her. She sits me down in her lap so I could listen to her heartbeat and she hugs me as tight as possible.
'I'm here for you know matter what, if that word trigger something in you than I'm not gonna use it ever again. I'm her to make you feel safe and loved. I won't go anywhere so you've stucked with me' she whisper quietly into my ear