Nathania Jane Life's Journey

Chapter 30

THANIA: I'm just messaging Daddy about the foundation day and I'm just telling him when will be the canvassing so that he can come home. *Sabay abot ng phone*

REGINA: Eh bakit mo binigay sa'kin kung kinakausap pala tatay mo.

THANIA: I don't want you to be mad at me. And this is your house, right? So I must follow whatever you said.

REGINA: But it's okay sweetheart as long as tatay mo pala kinakausap mo. Uuwi ba siya? *May galak sa kaniyang mga mata*

THANIA: No Mom. He can't come home. Mommy Grandma and Daddy Grandpa will be the one to come home.  Daddy is busy daw kase kaya sila na lang.

REGINA: *biglang nanlumo* Ahh okay. I think he will be here.

THANIA: Are you okay? Mom, do you still love Daddy?

REGINA: *ngumiti na lamang bilang sagot*

THANIA: What? Answer my question Mom. Do you still love Daddy?

REGINA: Ang sama ko naman kung pati sa sarili ko magsisinungaling ako. Oo, mahal ko pa rin siya. At umaasa parin ako na babalik siya.

THANIA: You know what Mom. Why don't you go there? Why don't you surprise him?

REGINA: How can I? I don't have visa? And I can't go there hangga't di pa tapos yong pasukan.

THANIA: You want visa? You can always go there. You're a Trinidad, right? We can process your papers. Take him back Mom if that's what your heart desires.

REGINA: Have you forgotten? I'm not a Trinidad anymore, we've been annulled for almost 6 years, right?

THANIA: I'm sorry, I forgot. It was all my fault. If it is wasn't because of me, maybe you're still married.

REGINA: No anak. It wasn't your fault. It's a mutual decision.
THANIA: But you wouldn't be at this situation if it is wasn't because of me.

REGINA: It wasn't all your fault anak.

THANIA: I'm sorry Mommy. I'm really really sorry.

REGINA: Stop blaming your self anak. Tahan na please?

THANIA: I love you Mommy.

REGINA: I love you too baby. I will always love you.

THANIA: Mom?

REGINA: Yes?

THANIA: Will you still love me when you gave birth to your baby? Or what if you suffered miscarriage, what will you do? Are you gonna blame someone?

REGINA: Of course I still love you. If I suffered miscarriage, what will I do? Simply accept it, it maybe hard at first but if it's not God's plan to keep the baby, then I'll just accept and trust his plans for me. And if I have a hard time on moving on my miscarriage, will you help Mommy?

THANIA: Basta huwag mo lang ako ipagtabuyan kahit sobrang lungkot mo? Kase baka di ko po makaya eh. It really kills me when you're mad at me.

REGINA: Sana kayanin mo anak ha? Para kay Mommy?

THANIA: I will Mom.

REGINA: Promise?

THANIA: Promise.

REGINA: I love you!

THANIA: I love you too, Mom.

REGINA: Tara na kain na tayo?

THANIA: Can I not eat dinner?

REGINA: Tayo na. Tara na sa baba.

THANIA: Can't I?