Singer of the moon (completed)

chapter VIIII- Did my heartbeat fade

warning topics of depression and self-harm 

"he does not care for you hunter, you can sleep all you want, and you can tell yourself that time will heal all your wounds but look me in the eyes and say that. We both know you were damned those first moments that you were taking a breath of air when your father first showed you that darkness. Love is something that just does not exist for people like us, that beating in your chest is numbed no matter how hard you cry yourself to sleep or drink, you bleed black because there is no soul left after James and yet you push on so tell me why you're doing this"

"because if I do not, after everything I did in my life it would be for nothing if I did not fight, to see the good in people, the light that shines in the darkness when the sun had set. To be able to look at a man and see a smile, if not for everything that blade would have found my skin years before James, or who knows maybe the drugs would have killed me, so while I want my revenge on him, I am somewhat thankful that he did save me what little time I did have" 

The suited demon stood among the darkness, looking around at what seemed to be countless shadows each with eyes whited out each screaming at him "you should have died, you should die, you are unwanted even in hell, spawn di Niente"   each moment that passes the suited demon would feel the voices from this place calling for him to lay down and give in. Erebus slowly sank to his knee's the weight of the voices pulling him down "please stop, I don't want to hear this anymore, leave me alone" he whispered with tears in his golden eyes, the demon's wings slowly creeping out giving a few flaps the air forcing the shadow's back before they cover Erebus is a bubble, the newfound silences greets him with a loving kiss, "please just make these nightmares end, please gods" Erebus breaths carefully as just one step and the tears would flood the ground on which he walks "THEN MY CHILD OPEN THE LOCKS THAT BIND ME, AND I WILL GIVE YOU THE POWER THAT YOU SEEK TO END THE NIGHTMARES, MY PRICE IS FAIR AND REASONABLE"  the new voice cut through even the wings that kept the shadows away, when Erebus stood again he found himself back in a lush forest, the sound of rain hitting the leaves followed by the ground before him stood a man bound by iron chains rusted from the very rain that never seemed to cease to fall 

"who are you, be it man or demon" the suited demon took a step forward to look at the thing before him, the demons clawed hand rises the mans face, only to find himself staring back. But this one was bound, bloody and scared beyond reason but this man only smiled kindly at Erebus, and his reply was simple and firm

"I am the side of you that died, and with me everything that you stood for in life" 

Erebus took a step back and thought for a moment before smiling raising his hand, touching the side of him softly "then become one with me so that the demon can not take over" with a single touch of the chains, they faded into the light as well as the copy before covering Erebus, the suited demon found a knife laying next to him buried in a dry rotten tree trunk "all you must do is clear Hunter, take the knife finish that fate had in store" the new voice in his head becked him, as if without a will of his own. The suited demon picked the blade up feeling the weight, and while he was light, he could not easily dismiss the weight on his back Erebus wake up the suited demon pulled out a lone cigarette and with a simple snap of his fingers it was lit, with a inhale the demon felt the dense smoke fill his lungs while looking around it was clear that he was alone, no more voices, no shadows. Just him and the thoughts he held back, "good thing it is raining, that way no one can see you cry" the crimson man though before driving the knife into his own neck 

jerking up as if waking from a night terror, the suited demon found angel laying next to him, seemly naked as far as he could tell, as well as the just sheer amount of black feathers littered around the bedroom. Sitting up for just a moment the bed shifted as the arachnid threw off the silk blanket and moved closer to him even laying his head on Erebus lap before muttering something that he did not catch. Taking a second to remove a hand Erebus found the half-full bottle of whiskey that he kept in the drawer, popping the top the sickly sweet drink filled the air, reminding Erebus of all the childhood memories back to him, like that of a flood only for the demon to push them back shallowing them, "angel its time to wake up my dear" the suited demon leaned down to whisper in the spiders ear as softly as he can before placing a kiss on angel's cheek and forehead. taking a moment to watch the demon's chest rise and fall a light smile touches his lips, one that luminated the happiness that he felt deep down but for now, he needed to push those feelings away, he could not afford to fall this deep with this demon, after all making love to him last night was not even the plan, it just kind of happened and there is nothing that he could do now, not that he would but he must get ready for the day so the red-skined demon carefully removed himself from the bed before tucking angel back in, "sleep well my dear, the drugs could take a while to work out of your system" Erebus headed out to get himself ready, the hairs on the back of his neck standing while he had just finished with his blacked pants "fang it is not polite to watch people get dressed nor to be a creep" the suited demon chucked before finishing dressing himself before the demon with black hair walked out of the shadows that covered the room "forgive me, my lord, I had arrived last night but it seemed you were busy" fang responed quickly before fading away, while the suited demon started to write a note for the demon sleeping in his bed, a few moments pass before Erebus walks back in placing the note on the nightstand that angel slept next to, unable to stop himself Erebus leaned down once more placing a soft kiss once more on the spiders forehead before leaving the home, locking the door behind him "one day my dear, when i am strong enough to protect you, i will make my feelings known but for now i must wait"

writters note: i just want to take the end of this chapter to thank you all for reading, this story would of never of gotten this far without you, so thank you all again that is all for now, and i will see you in the next chapter