If Only (spoilers for The Last Jedi)

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

Dela's POV:

"Shit." I can hear the people from the back say.

This is really not good.

About five tense minutes pass in silence until I hear more yelling.

"We're losing him!" someone shouts.

Those words make me freeze,

"Don't just stand around!  Help me!" more shouting ensues.

"What the hell is going on back there?" I scream.  I can't help it, I need to know.

"He's flat-lining!" someone screams back.  I don't know if they were replying to me or stating what must be obvious back there.

"You get his mouth, I got his chest!  Let's go!" I hear.

They're clearly starting CPR on him.

It better work.

It has to.

"It's not working!" another person screams.

"Keep trying!"

My hands, that were on the ship's controls, started to shake and I felt glued to my seat.

We could lose him.

We could lose Poe.

I don't know why I say we could.  We are losing him right now.

I hadn't known him for very long, yet he had such a great personality and made you feel like you've known him your whole life.  Even if you had just met him ten or so minutes before.

"Come on Poe," I can't help but think.  "You gotta pull through for us!  The Resistance needs you!"

"He's still not breathing!" more yelling.

"Well we're not just gonna give up!  Keep giving him breaths!" more shouting.

I felt like my whole body was shaking in terror now.

He can't just leave us.

After two more beyond stressful minutes, I hear more shouting again.

"We got him!  He's stable for now!"

I slump back into the seat, letting all the tension in my body out.  A breath of relief slips past my lips.

With a newfound determination and strength, I turn my attention back to piloting us all to base.

Poe was definitely going to make it.

Kylo's POV:

I had been thinking a lot about the fight I had with Rey earlier in the day.

Her words kept replaying over and over in my head.

"Kylo I can't do this.  I feel like you and I had something going on.  Something deep and special.  But I don't think it's there anymore.  Maybe it never was to begin with."

Those words hurt. 

For me personally, whenever I'm with Rey, I do feel something.

A completeness.

It's like nothing I've ever felt before.

I didn't feel alone when I was with her. 

I felt like a hole in my heart was filled.

And there was also a warmth instead of my usual coldness.

But maybe Rey was right.  Maybe it was never to be.