I forgot that i am a Villainess

*Chapter 3

Alois POV

i am the crown prince

i have many people's attention

looking for my flaws just for me to not ascend to the throne and be the King

i was still a child they are already expecting me to learn many things

from manners, politics, histories, debate, arts, music, strategies, games, martial arts and so on

i am but a normal boy but they make me lift a big burden

i never realize that i was still a child

that i still need love and care for my parents

but they are the rulers of this kingdom

they must hide their care for me so that i can survive and i cannot be a target of many enemies

as a crowned prince at such a young age my life is in danger

even when i am sleeping

when i am eating

or strolling in my backyard

i want to be normal

i want to be free

i want to laugh with other kids

not minding my manners

i want them to like me not as a crown prince

but as me

Alois

i live my life trained to be a perfect ruler for the country

i must be the best

i must be perfect!

because every move that i take

they may create bad rumors of me

they may frame me or create a bad reputation of me

and those bad reputations will become my downfall

i don't want that to happen

and i don't want to disappoint my parent's

when i am watching all the nobles children

they are happy

being spoiled

they can do everything they want

they don't have the big burden that i have to take

and when they saw me it's like i am a piece of meat

not a friend

not a family

not a child

but a crown prince

their stepping stone

they want me for themselves to gain power and fame

they want their daughters to wed me just for them to gain wealth and power

they want their sons to be close to me for them to gain my trust and support

they are a greedy persons

i can't trust anyone but myself

those little girls are fawning on me because i am a prince and i have a good appearance

i have power

fame

wealth

gorgeous look

but...

what if i am not the prince? would they still fawn on me?

what if i am ugly?

would they still marry me?

until i met this little girl in the tea party

she is the daughter of the Duke Rial

i thought she will be just like the other girls

spoiled

greedy

selfish

only looks for appearances

i thought she would stick to me like the other girls

but no

she has those grace like she has been training etiquette for such a long time

she is not a spoiled brat

but her actions speak elegance and grace

like she is not a child but a mature woman

a woman who knows what's to be done and not

i thought she is just like me

we have the same fake smiles

we are hidding our true emotions

i can see loneliness in her eyes

like mine

i may not be your normal child

but it's all thanks to my lifestyle i became like this

when i saw her i thought i want to be this girl's friend

because i know she will understands me

i know she is more than just a child

when i saw her preparing to leave i panicked and decided to take her to the gardens

eventhough i am not fond of visiting the gardens

just to talk with her and create a bond of frienship

i am nervous

this is my first time to initiate a tour and initiate in creating friendship

when i invited her to walk with me she stiffens but composes herself quickly

when she smiled i can't even conttol myself to smile also

i didn't expect my own body to move

and offer my hands to her

this is not me at all

it's just that my body move by itself like this is normal

she stiffens again

her reactions made me want to see more of her other reactions

when i touched her hand

i felt like electricity is being transfered to my body

isn't it possible?

i don't know either

but then i suddenly got big guts and intertwine our hands

it feels great and comfortable

her soft hands in mine

i am feeling like i am not alone again

she gaved me warmth that i don't even know why

why do i feel like this

it's like something at the back of my mind urged me to be with her

but the important thing is

all i know is i am not alone now