I forgot that i am a Villainess

Chapter 22

Kaizer POV

after that incident

she is gone

she vanished like a thin air

my eyes open wide while still kneeling at the ground not minding the bruises on my knees

not minding the rain that soaked me wet

not minding my tired body after i practiced my swordmanship

she's gone

i saw it in my own eyes

she vanished

i can't even touch her

she is like an air

can't touch

i felt my heart stings

i can't even do anything to stop her

i can't even soothe her frelings!

I'm useless!

i dont deserve to be her friend!

but i want to stay by her side no matter what

because she is precious to me

because i love her

eventhough she didn't feel the same way for me

for the first time i laid my eyes on her

she is different from other girls that i met

she is the first woman i ever touched except for my family

she is the first girl who touched me and ruffles my hair like I'm a cute puppy

i thought i would be responsible for her eventhough i don't love her

because my father told me that once i touched woman be responsible

my family is being too conservative

but then i didn't realize that each day passing by

i am slowly falling for her

for her loveliness

her uniqueness

her braveness

her being an amazing independent woman

her being a loving daughter sister and a friend

eventhough sometimes her emotions burried

you can still feel how much she cares for you when she moved

i love all of her

eventhough she didn't smile too much or talked too much

i still love her

every smile and laugh i am always burning it in my mind

because everything she does

is precious

my time with her is always precious

this 5 years that  were together

is my treasure

i am always for her when she is down

although i am hurt when she is crying or hurting because of another guy

my heart broke

i felt like someone slashed my heart with a sword

but i still didn't leave her side

because i cherish her more than myself

i want her also to recognize me as a man not just a cute best friend

but i know it's inpossible for that to happen

my tears fell together with the rain

it feels like if i didn't stop her from leaving she'll change

but i was too late

she is gone

everything about her suddenly change to darkness

all turns black

all light diminished

like a flickering light has been blown away from the cold wind

"Aaahhhhh!!!!! Celestia!!!"

i cried

i begged and begged for all of the Gods that he helped me

that Celestia will still be the same as before

that she will come back

but all of my begging and cries are all for naught

because ...

days

weeks

months...

and years have passed

she never returned from school

she disappeared in the whole Empire like she never existed