DOCTORS: Ivan Dashwood

Chapter 23

Maghapon akong tahimik. I'm trying to distance myself sa iba. At dinner, sabay sabay kaming lahat kumain, lahat ay mukha namang nag eenjoy. They're fun to be with yes, pero hindi parin matanggal sa isip ko ang narinig ko kanina.

Napa-halukipkip ako ng biglang humangin.
There's only four things I'm sure about right now.
One, I won't be able to get home for a couple of days.

Two, Ivan know's everything and decided to help and I'm sure he won't take no for an answer.

Three, He's married, and that also means I'm his mistress.
Sa totoo lang, inisip ko naring agawin si Ivan sakanya, pero it's a different case , they are already married.

And Four, I still love him despite of what I've found out.

Natawa nalang ako sa sarili ko. The things I do for love.

Well Adi, might as well enjoy what we have before it lasts.

My eyes searched for him when I stepped out of the balcony after dinner.
Duon ko lang napagtanto na marami-rami pala kami sa bahay na'to, I think aabot kami sa twenty-five na katao at lahat sila ay nagkakatuwaan parin sa sala at kasama nila si Ivan. Most of them, lalaki. Kaya naman medyo dumidistansya ako.

Although medyo okay na ako, hindi ko parin kayang makisama sa maraming lalaki. A while ago, si Ivan ang nag tuloy ng process ko sa last psychiatrist ko. And sinabi niya rin na maaaring magiging maayos na ang kalagayan ko after a few more days.

Nang magtama ang mata namin, I gave him a faint smile, but he's smart enough to notice that there's something wrong with me.
Kaya naman kahit sinenyasan ko siya na huwag ng lumapit sakin, ginawa parin niya.

I sighed as I watch him make his way through me.
I'm totally  transfixed everytime I see him.
His eyes, his nose, his jaw and his body's just so perfect. How can a guy look so beautiful and hot at the same time.

He is every woman's dream guy.

I guess I can say that I am lucky, cause he is mine, but sad at the same time, cause he's just temporarily mine.

"Stop giving me a fake smile Adi, might as well glare than show me that"
He stared straight to me.

Ahh, these eyes, not to mention how long his lashes are.
"I love to hear you talk, and get lost in your eyes Ivan. Except pag pinapagalitan mo ako"

May munting ngiti na lumabas sa mga labi niya.

"Can you check my temperature?"
Pag lalambing ko.

Idinikit niya ang palad niya sa noo ko.
"Your temperature's okay, why? Aren't you feeling well?"

Nginitian ko siya bago nagsalita uli. "Nah, you just make me very hot, Doc"
I accidentally licked my lips, feeling ko kasi nagda-dry na.

Agad nag iba ang expression niya, he stared at my lips, suddenly the worry in his eyes have disappeared.

Niyakap niya ako at bumulong sa tenga.
"Don't embarass me in here Adi. I don't wanna stay in here with a freaking hard on"
Pagdidiin niya "Or maybe we can just ditch them"

Nag kibit balikat nalang ako.
"No sex for a year, remember?"

He grunted on my response.

Nag hiwalay lang kami ng tinawag siya ni Xian.
"Bumalik ka nalang kaya doon, kaya ko ang sarili ko, baka pagod lang to"

Hindi pa siya pumayag noong una pero ipinagtulakan ko siya para naman makapag bonding sila. Actually si Lola Ester ang nag suggest ng set-up na'to, nagpapasalamat nga ang lahat sakanya dahil after many years ay nagkaroon uli sila ng salo-salo.