Trigger warning
~Troyes pov ~
"Its kinda late Ty dont you think we should finish tommorow where all most done and im tired" i really didn't feel like working anymotre my eyes closing everytime he said something i had no more energy to function, everything that happened today and just its too much ,
"Yeah thats fine we can do the rest tommorow " i was relieved with his answer i dont think i could handle staying up for any longer,but unfortunately i still need to take a shower ,
"Hey ty can i take a quick shower "
" yeah sure "
"Thanks ty"
I got my sweats and my regular black shirt my parents got me for my last birthday, thats all they ever gave me, i headed to the shower and locked the bathroon door behind me,
I undressed and looked my self in the mirror ,
Why am i so worthless! ?
Why do i even try !?
Should i even be here !?
I dont deserve to live........
I hate my body my skinny arms and to flat of a stomach my skinny legs that look like sticks....why me !?
I got in the shower,i hated taking showers cause i always thought the worst things in my mind, i can feel the water getting warm and warmer as i turned it up my skin burning from the heat but feeling good at the same time, i could feel my head starting to remind me of my past, as my eyes go close and warm water going down my face
I see my family on the 4th of july i can see the time my dad pushed me in the ocean i was drowning, i almost died intill my brother steel helped me out, sometimes i feel like i sould of ,that it would of been better if he didnt get me,
I opened my eyes trying to make my mind stop from these games and mind tricks i can see the water filling at the tub, iv been in here for almost a hour all ready, i think its Time .....
Time for me to Go .........
I plugged the tub so the water couldn't escape,and sat down waiting and waitting for the tub to fill up i could feel the tears starting up but they weren't falling till...
"Troye are you ok in there !? " thats when i cried, this would be the last time hearing Tylers vocie, Theres no going back... i had pills in my hands i found , i graped some of the water from the bath and took them all, and sat there.
"Troye your scaring me answer Me " i knew it was time "im sorry tyler i cant do this anymore Thanks for beging a good friend "
"Troye what are you doing !!!"
"STOP !! TROYE !!!" I could hear him crying shouting.....
I whispered to my self before i went under the water and threw the pill bottle "i Love you Ty" and when down,
*********** Tylers pov **********
STOP TROYE !! STOP
IM CRYING NOW I CANT LOSE HIM NOT TODAY NOT EVER HE DOSNT EVEN KNOW MY secret I WAS GONNA TELL HIM AFTER THE PROJECT
Thats when i heared a sound of something hitting the floor was was that my sleeping medicine!!!
TROYE NOOOOOOOOOOOOO "I LOVE YOU" I shouted
All i could hear was water im hitting and slaming the door i cant deal no not now i i just
I hear the front door unlock
MOM !! COME HERE MOM COME QUICK I CANT OPEN THE BATHROOM DOOR MOOOM !!!!!
My mom comes running up the staris "Tyler what is going on why are you crying"
" Troye in the bathroom and i think hes trying to kill himself hurry help me "
She help me brake the door open i ran in side the bathroom and there he was ......
Floating face down in the bath tub .....
I hurryed and fliped him over
"NOO NO MOM NO HE CANT BE GONE MOOM HELP ME NOO " ...
A/N
OMG HEYY GUYS SO YOU GUYS SAID I SHOULD KEEP GOING SOMI WILL FOR YOU GUYS , ITS NOT EDITED SO PROBBALY LOTS OF SPELLING ERRORS UMMM
OMG TOMMOROW I GET TO MEET MY INTERNET FRIENDS !! YAYAY
UMMM SORRY ITS SO SHORT AND IDK BORING IDK IDK LOL
SOOOOO YEAH IDK WHAT TO SAY
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