during that while, my heart will go stale.
i will forget how to smile, laugh, and love.
my sadness will overwhelm me.
crying at night will become a routine.
long showers full of overthinking and breakdowns have already occurred.
this is how i heal.
during that while i will not be the same. i may never be the same. i fear myself and what he would do to me.
the more i think of him, the more confused i get. do i like him that way? he is just a friend..
i know that when you're gone. things will never be the same.
i will miss him.
my heart will ache.
however time will do its part.
time will heal me once more.
the memories of us will fade. the smell of him will be forgotten.
but i will always remember the sound of his heartbeat pounding against my ear as i rested my head on his chest.
i will always remember the way his arms wrapped around me, the feeling of his breath against my neck.
tingles.
i will remember the tingles he gave me in moments like those.
bum bum, bum bum, bum bum.
his heart did that.
it will continue to do that, until we die.
the photos we have will always remain in my favourites section. that i know i will look back too whenever i miss him.
the more i think of him, the more i am confused.
i know for a fact, that i love him.
time cannot change that.
-our time together split in half when covid-19 attacked.
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