𝙇𝙊𝙑𝙀 𝙄𝙎 𝙇𝙊𝙑𝙀

𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪

We haven't spoke in what felt like forever, mainly because the last time we did I cussed you out.

You always knew how to bring out the most emotionally unstable side of me.

I miss you sometimes.

I wish I could talk to you about what happened to me.

I wish you could see how much I've changed. 

I don't know what kind of person I am anymore. I think I love people, and then I don't? I just don't understand it anymore.

I love you, though.

Maybe it's my attachment issues, maybe it's just how badly I want to be loved the right way, whatever it is, it's making very hard to act sensibly about the way I feel.

I always act rash and in big gestures.

It's like I subconsciously try to speed things up so they can go ahead and blow up in my face and be over.

I don't know.

But I hope one day I figure it out.

And I hope one day we can reconnect the right way, and do it the right time.