Thoughts turned into Poetries

2. I Tried but I'm Tired

(yr 2017)

All these sleepless nights were because of you
Thinking what if you liked me too
I really had no clue
What are you thinking? What are you doing?
How I wish it's about me too

I look at you at every moment of my day
As if you're about to fade away
And thinking sorts of things like
"When are you going to look this way?"
And you did, but then looked away

Soon we started talking
I tried not to freak while we're walking
You're just too cute when you're laughing
I can't help myself from falling
And now my heart is fast beating

And then there was a sudden confusion
When you held me, everything went slow motion
My heart can't seem to understand this locomotion
My heart was filled with so much emotions
But I needed words to speak and not just your actions

And so I've waited, and waited and waited
Long enough 'till those thoughts were sorted
Then told me it's me that you've wanted
But I'm so scared that I protested
I had to make sure, so I want your love tested

Our start was rough and tough
All you did and said felt like a bluff
But I trusted you sure enough
To give you my heart within a puff
And so I held on you this much

But then we would fight
Because we ran out of words to say
And you wouldn't even talk to me for a day
Or because of the girl you chose to talk to the other day
Or because of the problems you kept away

And then we would fight again over various things
Saying I couldn't appreciate all your doings
Saying I was too sensitive over a single thing
But then give me an apology to stop whining
And I'd gladly accept it tho my heart is breaking

Soon we had severe fights
Sometimes, crying make up my nights
Thinking of the words you said
Trying to locate my thoughts that seem to have fled
And with just that, my eyes won't stop swelling

I was told not to give up no matter what
But this time I won't remember that
Neither do I forget memories from this path
But my love, I've already tried and tried and tried
I know you also did, but for now, I'm tired