Some girls know all the lyrics to each other's songs. They find harmonies in their laughter. Their linked elbows echo in tune. What if I can't hum on key? What if my melodies are the ones nobody hears?
Clays pov
P R E S E N T T I M E
I'm sitting in Mr. Porters office right now. I feel completely numb. I feel like nothing even matters at this point. Fuck everything, right? I didn't know it was possible to not feel anything until this moment. Because out there in the hall...I lost control. I didn't care what I said in that moment. And yeah...I don't regret any of it. Well, I lied. I do regret what I said about Sierra. That shit was fucked up. But everything else...who cares.
"So, what happened out there in the hallway?" Mr. Porter said.
"I don't know. Tired, I guess" I said.
"Tired? Tired of what?" He said.
"Just tired." I said.
"Seems like you were angry. At this school. About Hannah." He said.
"Aren't you?" I said.
"Sure. Angry about another needless death. I'm sad for Hannah...and for all of us who...who cared about her." He said and I sighed.
"So, are you gonna punish me or what?" I said.
"Is that what you want me to do?" He said.
"Do you get a lot of kids coming in here asking for punishment?" I said and he chuckled a little.
"What do you think your punishment should be?" He said.
"Isn't that your job? I mean, it's not like you're trained to be a shrink or anything, right?" I said.
"No. But I like to think I can be helpful...to kids who are hurting, who are not in touch with what they're feeling, lonely..." He said.
"I'm not lonely" I said.
"Who may hurt themselves" He said.
"I'm not gonna hurt myself." I said.
"Who try to find their way out..." He continued and I cut in.
"You don't know what you're talking about. Screw you!" I said and then sat back in my chair sighing.
"Okay" He said.
"I'm sorry" I said.
"No, that's okay. You're hurting. And I want to help. I want to be there for you, Clay. I'm not going to say I understand just what you're going through, but if you talk to me...I'll try" He said.
"Everybody wants to talk. No one wants to do anything." I said.
"What is it that you want to do?" He said.
Good question, Mr. Porter.
Sierras pov
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FanfictionSierra baker is the cousin of Hannah baker. When life starts to go wrong for Sierra, her aunt and uncle take her in to life with them. Hannah and Sierra, who are extremely close, adjust to their new life living together. But....being together all...
