•it's going to hurt all over again• Peter Pan and Wendy darling fanfic

Part 8.

Later that night I just laid on my bed staring at the ceiling, I didn't want to be but I was hurt by pans words, why does he do it? Bring me back here just to taunt me, I'll never escape him, A knock on door came and I said come in and Lucas came in " hey" he said and sat on my bed " hi" I replied he placed a tray on food next to me, " I brought dinner" he says " thanks".

"You good D?" He asked and placed his hand on my hip, "Yh I'm fine" I reply "I know that isn't true what's wrong?" He insists " I wanna go home" I sit up and look Lucas in the eyes, "so badly" my eyes begin to tear up "I know baby" he says and I turn and lay my head in his lap and he storks my hair " I know" he repeats quietly, tears start to fall easily now and I find I'm sobbing "why does he do it?" I cry, " I don't know" he says "I can't do it anymore" i beg "take me home" I ask I know he can't " I can't baby", " I know".

I stay silent after that I cry quietly to myself, "I hate him" I finally say, " I fucking hate him", Lucas continues to stroke my hair and I wipe the tears from my eyes and sit up "it's going—" he says and I cut him off I placed my hand on his cheek and I kiss him, at first he's surprised but he places his hands on my waist and I straddle his lap, kissing erratically now "mm" I moan into his mouth as I begin to move my hips against his crotch, his syncs our movements and his hands latch onto my upper thighs he squeezes and I push harder onto him, I start to feel his crotch harden then he pulls away "wait no, we can't do this" he says and lifts me up "why?" I ask "because your upset and your focusing your anger on sex" I go embarrassed for a minute and he goes to leave "I'm sorry" I say "it's fine don't worry about it I'll come to see you tomorrow " he says and leaves.

"What the hell did I just do?" I said to myself, tears start to fall again and i sit on the floor against my bed, I just ruined the best thing since I got here, I wiped my face eventually and walked outside I couldn't find Lucas but I saw Bailey leaving camp and I followed him to a small area of mud " D what are you doing?" He asked me " please I've nobody eles right now I just need the company" and he hold out his hand and I take it, and he pulls me to a tree and he sits beside it and I copy him, " you okay?" He says "Yh I'm fine", he reaches over and wipes something off my lip, "you had lipgloss smeared, pan?" I can tell he's asking " no accidental I guess" I reply he nods his head and I know he knows I'm lying "how's everything been since I left then?" I ask, "it's been horrid pan just didn't take it well", "he didn't?" I say "nope he was enraged killed toby and CJ" he says,
"really?",
"Yh"
"That's cold"
"He loves you" Bailey says and shake my head
"That's were your wrong, he'll never love"
"Wendy, only love makes you that stupid" he says and I nod
"Okay" I grab a stick and start drawing in the mud, I draw the sun and the outline of the couple "damn that's good I didn't know you could draw" he says " ha not very well but Yh I love it i paint at home" I say,
"I'd love to see your work, you should ask pan for some paint"
"Ah are you crazy he'd never do it?"
"Maybe"
"Come on we should go back"

And we walk back "night" I say and he reply's "goodnight Wendy Darling".

I walk past pan who is sat reading a book next to the fire, "Bailey hun?" He asks " I was just walking back with him" I say, he pats his lap "sit?" He says and I ignore him "SIT?" He says and I walk over and sit on the floor next to him, "thank you", he says in a softer tone " can I read to you for a while?" He asked, "what book is it?" I say, "The notebook" he says and he reopens it and starts, "I am a simple man" his calm deep voice relaxes me, as he continues I start to relax and I lay my head on his knee his voice sounds kinder than usual "sorry" I hear him say as I shut my eyes.

Pans POV-
I watched as she drifted her body went from poised to relaxed her head laid on my knee and her hands rested on my thighs from here she'd held herself up to listen, I jumped slightly as her hands shifted and they moved towards my crotch, I picked her up and laid her on my bed as it was warmer in here, not that I care weather she's cold or not.

I place one simple kiss on her lips.

Wendy's pov

I could feel him pressed against my lips and I didn't want to but I kissed him back, connecting us again, "peter" I mumbled "mm?" He asked "what are we doing?" I said "just shhh" he says, and kisses my aggressively before pulling away and putting the covers on me.

"Goodnight"
"Night peter"