Letters Love, You

Chapter 19

Chapter 19: Lies

Chub's POV

"Ugh!" agad kong pinunit ang ang pangatlo kong papel.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang isusulat ko. Gusto ko sanang sulatan si Nat dahil sa makalawa na ang alis ko. Napatayo ako at lumipat sa kama ko.

"Nat.." sabi ko sa isip ko.

Bumalik sa isipan ko iyung mukha niyang laging masaya kapag nakakatanggap siya ng mag sulat ko.

"Oh. Eto ba makakapagpangiti sayo?" sabay bigay ko nang sulat sa kaniya..

"Thank you"

"Parang bata" tukso ko sa kaniya nang makitang abot tenga ang ngiti niya.

Galing sakin iyan. Ang manhid mo naman..

Natawa ako sa naalala.. Napabangon ako at kumuha ng special paper at ballpen. Pinatong ko ito sa unan at nagsimulang magsulat.

I've been admiring you since we are kindergarten.
I already liked you when you stole my pen.
I know you only see me as a friend..
So I alway tell my self "Wake up fool, your fairytales got to end"

I've been hiding for so long.
Still a coward and not so strong.
Not strong enough to confess.
So you're now happy with someone else.

Somebody that is not me.
Somebody that you chose and wanted to see.
I missed you so much my sunshine.
I'll be gone but you'll be fine.

Please take care well.
Couse' Ill be living like hell if you dont "I swear"
I hope I'll find a reason to comeback.
So please.. Be the reason of my "I'll be back".

Love,
Huejay Charles "Chubs"

Its already 11:00 when I finished the letter. Hindi ako makatulog kaya nagbukas muna ako ng facebook. Napabangon ako nang makita kong online si Nat. Hindi ko mapigilang mag alala.

Still awake?

...

The three bottons are making me nervous. Please reply Nat.

Can't sleep.

Why?

I quickly typed. This feels like happines. Finally, she is talking to me.

Di ko alam

Me too..

She already saw it but didn't replied.

Let's drink milk..

Tinakbo ko ang papunta nang kitchen para buksan ang organic milk at nilagay sa baso.
I took a picture of it and send to her. Hindi siya agad nakareply kaya bigla akong nalungkot. Ayaw niya na talaga siguro akong kausap. I closed my phone and quickly drink the milk. Sayang naman kung itatapon ko.

I am currently drinking when my messenger ringtone sounded. Agad kong ibinaba ang baso at binuksan ang phone ko. Its a picture of her glass with milk. Napasuntok ako sa hangin dahil sa sobrang saya.

Masama pa ba ang pakiramdam mo?

Sinisipon lang.