Letters Love, You

Chapter 20

Chapter 20: Tighter

Its December 24 and my sisters are so excited to open their gifts. We're having our breakfast and they are insisting to open it now.

"It's not yet christmas. Why are you so excited."

"I want to open kuya Chubs' gift now.!" napatingin ako kay mama. Nagsalubong ang mga kilay ko.

"Nagpadala si Chubs." nakahulugang titig ang ibinigay ni mama sa akin.

"Ah..." 

"May sulat para sayo. Nakita ko sa mailbox" tumayo si mama at may kinuha sa sala. Agad ko itong binuksan sa hapag.

I've been admiring you since we are kindergarten.
I already liked you when you stole my pen.
I know you only see me as a friend..
So I alway tell my self "Wake up fool, your fairytales got to end"

"Noong 19 pa pala iyan. Ngayon ko lang nakita" hindi ko pinansin ang mga sinasabi ni mama at nagbasa na.

When you smile, I smile too.
Too crazy to fall inlove with you.
When you cry,
It feels like I'm gonna die.

I tried to stop what I felt.
But when I'm with you, my principles started to melt.
Everyday I'm falling.
Every hour its worsening.

I've been hiding for so long.
Still a coward and not so strong.
Not strong enough to confess.
So you're now happy with someone else.

Somebody that is not me.
Somebody that you chose and wanted to see.
I missed you so much my sunshine.
I'll be gone but you'll be fine.

It hurts that I dont have the reason for you to choose me.
Just a friend who just did is to be clingy.
Too suffocating.
That I didn't see you're already drowning.

Please take care well.
Couse' Ill be living like hell if you dont "I swear"
I hope I'll find a reason to comeback.
So please.. Be the reason of my "I'll be back".

Love,
Huejay Charles "Chubs"

Nagulat ako sa pangalang nakasulat. Hindi ko napansin na tumulo na pala ang luha ko. Hindi ako makahinga at nawalan na ng gana. Agad akong umakyat sa kwarto at hinanap ang mga letters.

Good morning ganda,
Kumain ka na ba?
Excited na akong bumoto,
Pangalan mo lang naman kasi ang hahanapin ko.

Love,
You

Sa mga oras na ito ay si Chubs lang ang kasama ko.. Siya iyung kasama ko noong kinakabahan ako hanggang sa idineklarang presidente na ako pero pwedeng si Kyle to eh. Tinawag niya akong miss ganda one time noong nagpaclinic ako. Nung time na nahulog ako.

Nagulat ako sa papel na binigay sakin.
Bakit walang Niana Atasha sa mga sulatin?
Nagback out ka ba?
O nakalimutan nila?

Love,
You

Napaisip ako. This time hindi pa kami magkakilala ni Kyle. Pero diba? Alam naman ng lahat ang pangalan ko. Pero si Chubs lang talaga ang may alam ng kompleto kong pangalan. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko.