Conditioning The Heart

C h a p t e r 16: Discussions and Dresses 🔊👗

I look in the mirror attached to my locker door and try to flatten the loose baby hairs. Thankfully, the weather is getting colder now so there is less humidity.

As I'm preoccupied with my appearance, Sam walks up behind me and scares me. I jump in shock before realizing it's her.

Sam's laughing her head off, while I glare at her. She focuses again and the smile drops from her face once she notices who's behind me. I already know who it is without having to turn around.

" Go talk to him," I say softly. I close my locker and head to the library, giving the two some privacy.

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*Sam's POV!*

He's standing 6 feet away from me and I don't know what to do.

"Hey," He says with uncertainty.

I take a breath and realize that I'm actually gonna have to face him... and talk things out. And if I'm being very honest with myself, that scares me.

"Hi," I say back simply.

" Why have you been avoiding me?" He asks.

Okay then, I guess we're getting right into it.

I turn to the side, so I'm not directly facing him. It makes me feel a bit more comfortable. Like I'm telling what happened to a friendly locker, not the person I've been avoiding over a misunderstanding.

"I-" I take a deep breath, trying to calm my nerves and talk it out like a semi-mature person. " I thought you cheated on me. Even though I know we never had the talk of being exclusive to each other, I saw you in the cafeteria hugging and being more intimate than you would with someone you didn't know, and I panicked and freaked out."

I turn back to face him, trying to gauge the reaction on his face before I continue.

I can tell he is trying to comprehend the situation at hand. The wheels in his head probably turning, trying to connect the dots from the field of information I just dropped.

" Wait when did you think I cheated on you? I didn't hug anyone in the cafeteria other than my sister a couple days ago?" He says.

I just look at him shamefully.

It's like the dot's finally connected as he realizes what I saw " You saw me with her and assumed I was cheating on you?" He exclaims.

I lower my head and mutter " I thought it was happening again"

I raise my voice fully and respond " I'm sorry I freaked out. I just didn't want to feel the pain that comes with cheating."

"Sam, I get it. Cheating hurts. But I'm kinda hurt that you would think so low of me and then not even talk to me too see if it was true after!"

" I'm sorry! I let my emotions take control and I assumed things without checking-"

" Did you not trust me enough to even ask? I thought we were getting closer, Sam?" He asks softly.

" We are! Trust me, Ellis I thought this was gonna be something great. Like I finally found someone who gets me and pushes me to be better-" My voice cuts off as I feel a stinging feeling in my throat.

Ellis immediately rushes to my side, wrapping his arms around me. " I'm so sorry for being harsh. I just hate the feeling that you think lowly of me."

I wrap my arms around his torso squeezing tight, my head resting on his shoulder.

I sigh, preparing myself " I'm sorry too" and I pull away from the hug, wiping the single tear running down my cheek.

I speed walk to my bag and head upstairs, or downstairs, I don't know just anywhere away from here.