B.O.A.T - Brownest of All Time

Chapter 46

So did Saad's act really fix anything? I don't know or I don't think so. I mean, yes Zayan and I shared a few friendly texts yesterday after that. But what's gone is gone, right? Zayan hasn't even once called me 'sweetheart' or said 'I love you' after that fight. Maybe that level of closeness or those sweet moments will never come back. And it's okay. I brought it upon myself. No one is to be blamed.

But it hurts a little. Because once again it feels like I'm the kind of girl that no guy will ever fight for. It's always a one-time try with me. That's all I'm worth it. Just like how Sameer never came back, Zayan is not going to do it either.

I mean, he never bothered to ask me to reconsider my decision, right? It's because he accepted it as the response as soon as it was given. Now, imagine the same thing happening with a perfect girl like Raaya. Then, he would go after her until she says 'yes', isn't it?

Anyway, I can't expect such things from anyone. I'm nowhere close to perfection and I will never have a perfect relationship or find my happily ever after in a man. And it's okay. I have to accept the hard truth when it's slapped in my face over and over again. My personal life will always be mediocre. I just have to work towards creating an extraordinary professional life for myself, because that's what matters!

As I get ready to go for my morning run, my phone vibrates and it's a text from Zayan that reads, "hello 'BABE' 😆" I smile as soon as I read it. Typical me. Getting excited for the slightest of attention from Mr. Perfect Jawline. It's not even flirting though. I mean, being called 'babe' via text, that's typed in caps and within single quotation marks, is nothing but getting teased, right? Thanks to Saad's stupidity!

I sit on the edge of the bed to reply to his text and then I think to myself as to why he would message me so randomly in the morning, when I mean nothing special to him anymore. Oh probably, he is just bored and is using me to feel better. After all, that is what I am right? Just a rebound to men!

Me: lol 😂
Me: what's up?
Zayan: I was suddenly reminded of your sidekick story 😂
Me: Saad is crazy 🤦🏾‍♀️
Zayan: but u are sure about wanting a sidekick right? 👀
Me: sure why not 😏
Me: I'm definitely waiting to find a sidekick and start a perfect love story with him 😂♥️
Zayan: it's okay to look for a sidekick but maybe not a perfect one lol 👻
Me: why not? 😏
Zayan: Coz perfect doesn't exist 'BABE' 🤷🏻‍♂️
Me: haha it does 😈
Me: maybe u haven't seen any 😌
Zayan: have u? 🤔
Me: I've heard about many perfect love stories 💁🏾‍♀️
Zayan: 🤦🏻‍♂️
Zayan: for real tho
Zayan: there is no perfect relationship 😅
Me: ok smartypants
Me: I know u won't agree
Me: but there are perfect people and together they form perfect relationships 😑
Zayan: nah
Zayan: there are just normal people
Zayan: and it's the love and effort they put that makes their relationships work 😁
Me: I have no time to argue with u 👿
Me: u stick to ur opinion and I'll stick to mine 🙃
Zayan: not an argument 👀
Zayan: I just said the truth 👻
Me: whatever
Me: Don't come to me with ur realism crap early in the morning 😒
Me: anyway I gotta go for a run now 🏃🏾‍♀️
Me: bye 👋🏾

Oh man! Zayan can get so annoying when he starts talking like a realist. What's so wrong about believing in perfection? He can go to hell with his truth. I will still stick to my opinion. Perfect love exists! Perhaps one day when he has a perfect relationship with a perfect girl like Raaya, he might agree with what I said.