broken n crazed - yg x bts

chapter 1: wнy?

[⛓🍇] yoongis pov

I dreaded going to school. my body ache and my head was pounding. I forced my self out of bed and walk to my bathroom. I look at my self disgustingly in my mirror.

your so fat

you need to loses weight

you wonder why they hate you

look at your self

your a pig

I never used to think like this.

All I'm doing is standing in front of the mirror and these thoughts fill my head so effortlessly.

you should just starve yourself

you need to lose weight

fatass

I used to play outside with other kids, laughing away and not giving a single fuck.

you should just jump off a cliff with that body

You should be ashamed

disgusting

I was so care free and liberated in happiness.

Pathetic

I grow angrier, as the different thoughts grow louder.

you can't get rid off it

we it is you.

"SHUT THE HELL UP!" I scream as I punch the mirror, not being able to take the vile anymore.

i squeeze my eyes shut as I pull at my hair.

I try, I really am trying.

To stop myself. The only way I feel free and liberated now...

Is by hurting myself.

I tap my foot.

Count my finger.

Breathing exercises.

And nothing, I feel no better and my need to hurt grows stronger.

I bit my lip. Contemplating. I stand in complete silence. Trying through sheer will not to go through with it.

That's it.

I walking towards my bedroom, the time it takes to get there seemingly taking longer than I ever remembered.

I soon I reach the room my eyes catch the alarm clock on the nightstand that woke me up into this episode I'm having at this very moment.

'i had more than enough time'.

I thought.

I dash over to my bed and lift the the corner of it up to retrieve something.

I finger the edges of it.

Toss it around in my hand.

I stare at the blade...