𝐃𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 | 𝚜.𝚛

𝑰 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒊𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒃𝒆𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒎𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕

when you got to new york, you felt like there was a nothing weighing you down no more

other than the guilt that ran through you every time you think of the reason that made you leave in the first place

you shouldn't feel guilty

why should you

you didn't do anything wrong

so why feel this way

was because of what you told spencer

was it the argument

was it the fact that you never let him explain

what would he have said

would he just give excuses

those things didn't matter right now, you had more important things to think about right now

like your transfer to New York's  FBI branch

which you were on your way to right now

it's been a week since you left

it's been a week since you talked to the doctor you once inched to touch, once inched to kiss, once said I love you too

Alex tried to contact you multiple times

but you never answered because you found out that she knew, Garcia had told you that she knew that spencer was cheating on you and you felt betrayed, you felt hurt but you couldn't really stay mad at her forever
but that time wasn't now

to you, everything that happened was still fresh and still hurt

at times you were in disbelief

and at other times you were angry and frustrated ...

you parked and gather your things
you took a deep breath and walked in ready to put emotions away and put your work attitude on .....

- year later -

you decided that you wouldn't open up anymore

after a year you were closed off
after your first day, you gave a different attitude

it wasn't friendly and open
it was closed off and professional

you weren't gonna make another mistake and get hurt again

you couldn't afford to let that happen not again ...

sure at first people thought you were a bitch
you had your reasons, you never told those reasons of course

but you only warmed up to them a months later

and they never said anything about it
they let you be

never questioned it

they invited you to go out with them many times

you only went out twice with them