A/N:
I keep changing the povs, I'm so sorry lmao I'm gonna keep it in the first pov
___the BAU...
my home away from home
though the one person who always made this place not feel so dull and grey only made my heart hurt
each time I look at him I only get these burst of regret and sadness
I get this feeling that I could somehow prevent our break up
prevent this separation
prevent the person who owned half of my heart to crush it into dust
and to do it once more even though I know we aren't together
so why must I feel so hooked to him
so why do I feel the need to feel him
so why do I feel the need to touch him, his warmth, his smile, his hair, his voice...
he broke me
he broke my heart
my well being to love againand seeing Jennifer being all touchy with Reid was a new point of low for me
it broke me
after all the healing my heart broke and with that my abduction adds on to it
night is the worst time for me, I can't sleep
the nightmares get to real
I always end up calling Reid's name only for him not to be therehe would've helped me through the nightmares
but he can't and he won't
he's never called or tried to contact me
for two monthsI should hate him
not always wanting to be with him
he hurt me
so why do I want to still be in his presence
he gave me the cold shoulder
he ignored me
he treated me like I was nothing to him
he gave his attention to Jennifer
Jennifer indulged him
she used spencer
she cheated on her husband
she cheated on her family
she dismissed me as her friend
she didn't keep my feelings in check
she didn't think how this would affect me...
I have to face the two people who I held so close to my heart and called family, I can't even look at them without feeling so much agony
____
when I entered the bau I didn't go straight to the bullpen
I went to meet up with Hotch
he's the only reason why I'm back
he called me here for an assignmentI did that assignment
I got abducted for it
they solved itthe new york office didn't want me to no more because hotch told them my services won't be needed there anymore
for what reason ... I don't know
it didn't make sense to me
but I didn't care for that
YOU ARE READING
𝐃𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭 | 𝚜.𝚛
Fanfiction"𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒕" | 𝚊 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚛 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚏𝚊𝚗𝚏𝚒𝚌 "𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭!" 𝐒𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐃𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝 𝐩𝐨𝐩 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐞𝐟𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐢...