Reins of Love |PJM| ❌ DISCONTINUED ❌

Chapter 8 🏇

A/N : Another backstory chapter.

M/N P.O.V (y/n's mom)

I ran my fingers through my hair and gripped it hard as I sat outside Y/N's door, listening to the heartbreaking conversation she's having with her friend.
Is she really going to do this? It's all my fault... How could I say such a thing.. I'm the worst mother ever..
I heard her cut the call and get up and go towards the bathroom. When I heard the sound of the shower turn on, I sigh and get up and walk slowly to my room.

I can't imagine living without my daughter. She is my source of happiness and even though I've never told her, I'm sure she knows it. But there I went, telling her the opposite... Although it was the truth, I never hated her for it.. not like her father did.. It wasn't her fault that she was hated for being born.. It was mine.. and mine alone..

*Flashback*

Eighteen years ago.

My husband returned from work once again, tired and stressed.
I sighed and squeezed his shoulders, trying to relax him as much as possible.
" Bad day again? "
" Honey, I love my work. It just get too much of it sometimes. Anyways.. I wanted to spend some time with you... And that's why I'm taking a day off tomorrow.. "

My heart jumped with joy, " Really?" I said with a big smile. He nodded his head and smiled back.
I squealed and bounced in my spot and then hugged him tight.
Finally...
I pulled him into a passionate kiss. And laid my head on his chest.
" I'm happy.. "
" Me too.. me too "
" When can we have children? "
His mood changed in a second.

" We've talked about this before. My parents said it won't be good for the business and their reputation. Parenting will do nothing but distract me from the goal I'm striving to achieve and only add more pressure in my life."

" But children are not a burden-"
" I said NO! "
I pulled away from the hug immediately and stood, looking at my feet.
" O-ok.. "
" If you bring this up one more time, you will face the consequences of my anger. And I don't want to hurt you M/N"
I nod silently, avoiding his sharp stare.
He sighs and says, " I'm trying to explain it to you M/N.. if I have children, all my hard work will go in vain.. I'll be nothing but a disappointment in my parents eyes, the family business will crumble.. and it WILL be your fault. "

M-my fault? All I want to do is to have a family with him.. I thought he wanted that..

* Next day *
I'm drawn out of my sleep by my husband's alarm...
I squint my eyes open to see him getting out of bed and going to the bathroom.
" What are you doing? "
" I'm going to work. "
" But you said you're taking a day off.. "
" Change of plan. I have too much work."
I knew he wouldn't keep his promise... He never does..
" O-ok... "

*Time skip*
The door is slammed open and I jump in surprise at the sudden noise.
I see my husband stumble into the house.. his tie crooked, shirt untucked, bed hair, and bloodshot eyes..
" Omg.. honey what happ- "
I was cut off when he slammed his lips onto mine, pinning me against the wall.. He reeked of alcohol and that's when I realized..
He's drunk.

I tried pushing him but he doesn't budge..
" S-STOP!!!! "
He pulls away slowly and slurs out his words...
" I thought you wanted this "
" Wanted what? "
He steps closer to me, and the smell of alcohol from his breath fills my senses.
" A family. "
" B-but not when you're- "
" Sshhh..." He says, and places a finger on my lips. " Just let me do what I have to "

I nod my head and lose myself in him..
One thing led to another and the next thing I knew, I was regretting my decision..

* Three weeks later *

I held the test, my hands trembling and sobs leaving me continuously as I see the result in front of me..
Positive..

*Time Skip*

My husband walked through the door and laid his bag on the table. He didn't remember anything from that night because that's how heavily drunk he was.. I told him that he walked in and passed out for a few hours..

What am I gonna do... I can't hide this forever.. I have to tell him, and face the consequences.. I never should have allowed him to take over me that night.. I knew he was drunk and yet I took advantage of it in my desperation to have a family..

He noticed my trembling figure and asked,
" Hey, are you ok? "
Oh no.. w-what is he gonna do to me... I can't hide this from him.. he's gonna find out soon enough.
" I'M SORRY!!! I DIDN'T MEAN TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU!! "
My eyes meet his shocked face and he says,
"Why are you sorry? What do you mean you took advantage of me?"
I took the test stick out of my pocket and slowly slid it across the table towards him..

I watched as his soft gaze turns to one of hate, disgust and extreme anger.
" WHAT IS THIS?! " He screams, his voice echoing throughout the house..
Tears flow uncontrollably down my face.
" I-i I tried to stop you!! B-but you i-insisted! "
" W-WHAT?! I never did ANYTHING with you!!! "
I looked at my feet as my body trembles in front of him. I look at him with guilt and see his expression turn from confusion into realization. He took slow steps towards me with his fists closed tightly and his jaw clenching.. I walked backwards until I felt the cold, hard wall on my back.

" You lied to me. I was drunk and you took advantage of me. " He spits out his words.
" I-im sorry " the next moment, my cheek was stinging from the impact of his hand colliding with my cheek.
" You bitch."
My eyes widened and my heart clenched in pain at his choice of words.
" I knew you wanted it, but I didn't know you were so eager to the point of desperation. I want it gone. It's not too late. You will get rid of that curse. "

Get rid of my baby? No.. I can't do that.. I can't take the life of an innocent child.
" No. I can't do that. "
" No? You're going against my decision?" He says, his hands clenched so tight that his knuckles began to turn white.
" I can't take the life of an innocent child. "
" Then.. my love and respect no longer belongs to you. "

" W-what? Honey- "
" Stop calling me that. I despise you. If I had the choice, I would leave you right now. This child will ruin my reputation and dignity, but it won't destroy me completely. I will not treat it like my son/daughter. It will mean nothing to me. For the sake of the business and my dignity, we are a married couple. But just know, that I hate you more than anything in this world. "
With that, he left me there and walked upstairs.

Ever since that day, he made me sleep in a seperate room, he looked at me with nothing but disgust in his eyes and he never spoke to me.

* End of flashback *

He wasn't even there for Y/N's birth. I never expected him to be there anyways.
And before I knew it, the rising sun shone through my windows and filled my room.

A/N : I know that I haven't included Jimin in these chapters but don't worry, I have it all sorted out.