Full time job

Where im meant to be

I stand outside namjoons studio door and knock quietly. The door opens quickly to namjoon standing there with a welcoming smile.
"hey Y/n you took a while to get here everything ok?" He asked me and I couldn't help but think these boys know way too much way to fast .
"Sorry I ran into sejin in the hallway I had to stop and talk" I respond casually.
he nods with a smile and steps aside to let me in.

I walk in and it's the same as the last time , he ushers me over to a chair and I take a seat , he sits in the chair next to mine.
"Ok so I was hoping you would listen to a few things I'm working on" he tells me Handing me a pair of headphones .
"ok I'll be glad to" I take them and put them on carefully.
"Please be honest , don't be scared to hurt my feelings" he says seriously.
"I will be truthful I swear" i say putting my hand on my Heart , he can't help but grin at my gesture
"so cute Y/n" he says quietly.

A small blush comes to my cheeks and I change the subject.
"ok ready when you are" I tell him happily.
He clicks on the first clip on the computer and a tune starts playing , i like it! It's smooth and I'm already into the music before namjoons voice starts rapping over the beat. I listen to it carefully while he looks on hopeful. The clip ends and I slip off the headphones, namjoon looks at me for feedback.
"I really loved it namjoon , it was great" he's noticeably relieved.
"really Y/N ?" I nod my head
"yeah I loved the rhythm it made me feel happy and upbeat and your rap was perfectly placed" I say honestly .
he looks so happy I can't help but smile.

"Ok here's the next one" he says handing me back the headphones.
I slip them on again and he clicks the next file. It's a slower more smooth melody and namjoons singing voice starts the first verse then moves on to a rap , it ends and I hand him back the headphones once more. He puts them down.
"well?" He asks .
"It was great , had a really smooth vibe , are you going to be singing in the final version?" I ask carefully , he laughs.
"ha no I'm no singer , that's just a guide for one of the vocal line to follow", I nod.
"good because you could wake up all the neighbourhood cats with your high notes" I say jokingly .

he lets out a loud laugh and his beautiful dimples are just to die for.
"Such a brat" he says playfully
"so are you going to sing for me or what?"He says pushing my chair with his foot sending me spinning back slightly .
I laugh and use my feet to brake
"uh let me see ....not in this lifetime" I say poking my tongue out at him .
"ah Y/N you won't sing for me" he says pretending to be sad.

"if you want to keep your eardrums in tact , I would avoid my singing" I say lifting my leg to kick his chair.
he catches my leg mid air and pulls bringing my chair with it , in shock but reacting quickly I lift up my other leg fast to avoid crashing my knees into his. Still holding my one leg he guides it through the gap between his chair arm and seat. I copy the action with my other leg not knowing where else to put it, he leans forward.
"ok so you won't sing , maybe I should record your moans instead" he says seductively then leans in and kisses me softly.

when I respond he deepens the kiss , he reaches down and cups my ass lifting me fully off my chair to straddle his lap. I wrap my arms around his neck one hand running through his hair as he kisses me , he's not rough or needy he's just smooth, like he's happy to take his time and be in the moment. His One hand placed on the small of my back while one hand holds the back of my neck keeping the kiss steady.

I can feel him starting to get aroused at the pressure of me practically grinding on his lap. I break the kiss and lean back slightly putting a little distance between us.
"we should stop namjoon" I say a little breathless.
he brushes my cheek with his hand.
"Are you ok ? I'm sorry" he says concerned .
I place my hand over his softly.
"no no , I'm fine , I want to you know ... get close to you" I tell him and he smiles .

'oh god those dimples , that smile I must be crazy' I think but carry on.
"it's just I've had a crazy few days and I think I should slow down" I explain .
he nods with understanding
"I get it baby , it's fine we have plenty of time to spend together" he says grazing a thumb over my bottom lip.
"there's no rush, besides I want  to take my time with you" he says with a wink.

my cheeks flush a little and I lean in giving him a quick kiss.
"thanks for being you namjoon" I say laying my hand on his chest .
Suddenly he jumps up holding onto my waist , I grab his shoulders fast so I don't fall , I giggle as he carry's me across the room to the door.
"where are we going?" I say still laughing.
"you are going to get your stuff and we are going home early" he says matter of factly .

he puts me down carefully by the door
"I'll message the boys we will meet at the van and go home to relax and have fun , we need it" he says opening the door for me.
"Ok it actually sounds perfect, I'll see you at the van" I say as I walk out and close the door behind me excited to have a fun night with the boys. I'm halfway to the staff room when I bump into sejin.

"oh hello sir I was just getting ready to take the boys home" I say shyly hoping I'm not in trouble for earlier.
"ah that's a good idea Y/n they need a break every now and then , actually I was thinking they should take the whole weekend off, no work just relax to refresh themselves" he tells me.
"I'm sure they would appreciate the break sir" I reply to him .
"uh sir?" I continue shyly
"yes Y/n?" I shuffle nervously
"about earlier with yoongi , it was an awkward situation I'm sorry I'm hoping this doesn't affect your opinion of my work?" I ask him.

he shakes his head
"Y/n you are young and they are young , they need someone in their lives that will be there for them , not just another stylist or staff member" he says carefully.
"what I'm saying is what you and the boys do or say during your time together is between yourselves , as long as discretion is involved of course" he adds looking a little awkward having this conversation. "Thank you sir , and I think I understand" I say with a bow

"goodbye sir" I say and I leave the hallway knowing now that jisi was correct from the start , but funnily enough I don't care! I realise I'm happy , for the first time in a long time I'm comfortable and I feel like I'm where I'm meant to be with the people I'm meant to be with. I grab my stuff and head down to the van with a smile on my face and my mind and heart content.