MCYT Oneshots

Oneshot 1: Am I Worth It?

Warning: this oneshot has angst, self harm, and blood.
Also in this oneshot, Tommy lives with Wilbur, Tubbo, Technoblade and Philza.

Tommy lied on his bed, staring up at the ceiling, the bags under his eyes obvious.

"Tommy. It's time for dinner." Phil said as he walked into his room.

"Hm?" Tommy looked towards Phil, coming out of his train of thought.

Phil sighed as he walked towards the boy and looked down at him. "C'mon. We don't want to keep the others waiting, now do we?"

Tommy picked himself up out of bed and followed Phil downstairs. He saw Tubbo, Wilbur, and Techno chatting as he walked up to the table.

"Hia, Tommy!" Tubbo paused to greet his best friend.

"Hey." Tommy responded halfheartidly. He sat down and looked at his food.

Don't eat it.

He wasn't surprised to hear the voices. It surely wasn't the first time he'd heard them before. No matter how much he tried to shake the thoughts away, they always found a way back into his head.

After half an hour, Techno, still being hungry, looked over to see that Tommy had yet to eat his food. "You gonna eat that?"

"Oh. Uh, no. You can have it." He slid the plate over to Techno.

Later, that night, Tommy was sitting at his desk. He couldn't sleep. And on the nights he could, he had horrifying nightmares. He proceeded to open a drawer. Reaching inside, he pulled out a knife.

Your life has no meaning

Is that true? Did Tommy really not matter? Would anyone care if he got hurt?

Would cutting help?

He proceeded to bring the blade to his wrist. A tear fell from his eye. He pierced the skin, his lips quivering.

One slash. Two. He went for the third one as he heard footsteps. He started to panic. Who's up at this time? Is is Phil? Wilbur? Techno?

The door opened as Tommy rushed to hide the blade and his wrist behind his back.

Tobbo walked into the room, a concerned look on his face. "Tommy? Why are you still awake?"

"I... Er.. Couldn't sleep..."

"Well... Huh? Why is your hand behind your back?"

Tubbo started to walk closer to see what Tommy was holding. Tommy was freaking out as he got nearer.

Tommy tried to push Tubbo away as he got closer. Grabbing his hand, Tubbo froze when he saw what Tommy did. His eyes widened as he observed the cuts.

"Tommy... Why... Why didn't you tell me..."

"Tubs... I... I-"

He started to cry. Tubbo wrapped his arms around Tommy before he could say anything else.

"Please... Don't cut. For me a.. And... And-"

Tubbo was trying so hard to talk to Tommy without crying but he lost his composure. He started crying along with Tommy. They sat there hugging and crying for over an hour.

He then led Tommy into the bathroom to bandage the cuts.

They both fell asleep cuddling each other on Tommy's bed.

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A/n Haii! This is absolute trash! Vote if you want! I have homework but fuck that amirite? Save if you want! I hope you enjoyed it, I guess. Follow if you want. No pressure. I have another book starting soon so look for that.