Obey me! X Reader

Please, Help...

This isn't a joke, and I am not intending to be funny, if there are any mistakes, I'm sorry, I don't feel like me anymore. I love Obey me so much, to the point where knowing that none of it is real is physically hurting me, I'm crying as I write this, and knowing I'll be abused at school tomorrow, knowing that I have no safe space, hurts. It scares me more, because my dad was pronounced dead at age 7 but was revived, and he said when he was dead, Hes saw absolutely nothing, which scares me because that either means life beyond death doesn't exist, and also because I know then once everybody I know and love are gone I'll be alone, with nobody to hold, but my fictional anime husbandos. I'm too attached to the game now, and if you'll excuse me... imma go play obey me again whilst crying. Like I said, this isn't A joke, It also scares me that my mum will wake me up angry because I'll be late for school because it's already 2am. I've tried to fight these feelings, I REALLY FUCKING HAVE! But I gave up. I'm weak and I don't know how much longer I can do this anymore...