Love

Breaker

You took me in your hands , cleaned me up with your palms , you took a broken girl and fixed me all up. You sang all of my songs , reposted my poetry ,I should have seen the signs indicating that you really do fuck with me. You layed your head on my chest , I think you could feel my heart rioting. Even when I said I was okay , you could see me eyes dance in anxiety. You blew up my phone with calls , sweet good morning/good night texts and what a shame it really was that it took me losing you to figure out I was blessed.

I took a good women , made her heart feel insecure and all she did was give me but just like rest all I did was continuously take more. You screamed at me for hours , seeing her texts on my phone was too much for you to take. Now you've found out , the evidence written all over my expression , this is the only music I'm too much of a coward to face. I can't even lie I'm ashamed of myself , you've loved another manipulator, I guess I'm just another one to add to your shelf. I'm selfish , I was blinded by myself. Blinded by the beauty , blinded by her seductive ways,but that's no excuse I'll understand if I lose you.

Now you're looking at me broken , no more screaming or fighting , the look in your eyes say more than any words can convey. You're packing your shit you're leaving ,I know this is it. I won't ask you to stay , i know I've created insecurity from with your skin. Get away from me , baby I'm no good. Let someone love you , please heal what I probably should. Love is all about honesty ,girl I'm no good please show the heart your mama created some much deserved loyalty. I'm sorry I can't tell you what's worse: being heart broken or being the one who does all of the breaking.

-Liyah Smith