If it truly is fate. | Kylo Ren x Reader.

chapter nineteen.

"Ren, are you fucking serious?" Vicrul scoffed at him, Ben looked up at him with wide eyes. "You could have... Made her run away, made her go back, why didn't you?"

"You and I both know that she won't do that." Ben answered, it's been hours since he came back without you, hours since you disappeared in his hands.

"I should've..." Vicrul ran his fingers through his hair in frustration. "M-maybe she's still out there h-how did she disappear? Because--"

"Vicrul that's enough." Rey cut him off, both sides were hurt but Ben... "Ben, calm yourself down."

Vicrul and Kylo didn't realize how everything was floating around them until it all dropped to the ground.

"It's my fault." Ben said quietly.

"It's good that you know." Vicrul gritted his teeth. "Now find her."

Ben closed his eyes and sighed, where could he find you, and how could he possibly know you're still alive?

How can he know when you disappeared right before his eyes.

Kylo Ren wouldn't have cared if an ally died.

But then again, he fell for you as Kylo Ren, he loved you as Kylo Ren and so did he as Ben Solo.

Ben or not you still loved him anyways.

"What are you thinking?" Rey asked him.

"I'm going to find her."

"You can't be serious, you said it yourself she's gone!"

"How can we be sure? She's done a lot of things, even impossible ones." Ben walks out of the place without another word and Rey immediately follows him.

"You think this will do you any good? Why can't you just accept that she's dead!"

Ben turned around swiftly, almost making Rey stumble backwards, and for a moment she saw the anger Kylo Ren once held in his eyes.

"When everyone told you your Parents  aren't coming back did you believe them?"

Rey opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out, Ben gave her a glare once last time before running off.

Rey knew that he would be willing to to everything just to get you back and if he doesn't...

It won't be very good.

"Vicrul! What the hell have you done." She yelled as she walked inside, if this doesn't turn out well, it's going to be bad.

If Ben said he purely believes that you're alive it would be alive, maybe his decision was made out of desperation but there was something telling him that he shouldn't give up on you anyways.

"Y/n, when I find you we're going to have a serious talk." He said to himself as he boards his ship, "Then we're running away from this shithole, maybe go to your mom's?"

He looks ahead and starts his ship.

"But first, you need to be alive."

A/N: is the reader alive? Idk because I didn't make an outline, I'm sorry.